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friday 9/28/07:

-no exercise ):

ate:
-raw fruits & veggies from the list (negative)
-1/2 cup puffed rice (30)
-whole can of bebe corn (50)
-smart dog (45)
-3 cups of juice (15)
total:
-140

9/27/07:

it doesn’t really count as exercise, but at least i got out of the house.
i walked to walmart from the hospital & back, a few blocks
& i walked around walmart
checking every label, & finding some pretty cool stuff.
50 calories for a whole can of bebe corn
30 for the tin of water chestnut
60 for a cup of puffed rice cereal
more smart dogs
10 for a tbs of blackberry jam n_n yay jam
more light bread 40 cals a slice
15 for a half cup of chow mein veggies
5 for a cup of diet ocean spray

& i tried on pants
none of them fit my calves right [too loose] & my brother was in a hurry
so i just did without
but i dropped 3 sizes.

12 pants (i didn’t try on 10)
& i saw these cute coats with furry hoods
i tried on the 16-18, too big
14, too big
10-12 still a little too big

n_n

ate: fried egg with ketchup & green onion – 80
smart dog with half a bread slice, sauerkraut, & brown mustard – 65
total: 145

ALSO i drove in the city & all the way back home – 60 miles
can’t wait to get my license & go on a road trip with my friends across the US.

9/26/07:

): i had a bunch of plain popcorn
but i was still hungry
which is rediculous
so i looked in the fridge
& everything looked
so good
but my limit is 100 today
‘maybe i could make myself something
& then purge it up’
naw, that’d be horrible
& what if you can’t purge?
you’d feel awful!!

but i did it anyway
i made three fried eggs in the cooker
with swiss cheese on top
then topped it with salsa & sour cream
& made two pieces of buttered toast
after it was done, i drank two jars of water
& ate it all in like 60 seconds
& then drank another half jar of water

it was the best tasting food
i’ve ever made by myself

but not the second time around

no one was home but in case they did
i turned the speakers up all the way
put take me out on repeat
& left my door open while i went into the bathroom

SURPRISE they came home in the middle of it
i left my tobacco out in my room WITH
the door open D;
i don’t think anyone saw,
but they might have heard me
& i left the butter & sour cream & shit out
in the kitchen

my dad’s probably suspicious as hell
but he would never say anything because
well that’s just the way he is

i think i got it all out
god, that was so disgusting

i feel great, now though
it was worth it. ;-;

the part i love about it is
afterwards, i’m shaky as hell
i lovelovelovelove being shaky
i was putting away groceries
& my leg jumped up & down while i stood there
crazy fun
& i feel like dancing & jumping around
& i’m not hungry

funny, i used to not know
how you could be anorexic & bulimic at the same time

silly me. :/

total: zero?