Five things that happened today:
Developed a new code system for my data that seems to be working
Younger daughter won a music trophy
I cooked a candllit dinner for my family and a friend including cake
Walk with my husband in the dark on our own
Primroses in the garden
niq's Life List
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1. Raise happy kids
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2. help the environment
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3. change world trade
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4. PhD
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5. complete a triathlon
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6. knit every sweater I wear
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7. work because I like to, not because I have to
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8. Own only the clothes and shoes that make me feel great
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9. see the northern lights
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10. Visit Mali
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11. Learn Arabic
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12. Get a masters degree or better in abstract algebra
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13. Improve my French
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14. Lose 7lbs in weight
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15. Lose 35lbs in weight
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16. Lose 42lbs in weight
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17. knit string slippers
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18. knit felt slippers
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19. get to know people better
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20. listen carefully
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21. list 5 good things that happens everyday
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22. bake sourdough bread
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23. Grow a walnut tree
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24. Only have things that I'll actually do in my list
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25. Travel to New Zealand by boat
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26. Renovate my house
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27. Learn Russian
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28. eat no refined sugar for a month
1 entry3 people -
29. giggle more
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30. Cycle around Iceland
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31. see the Tour de France live
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32. dip
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33. Practice mindful consumption
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34. increase my flexibility
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35. Laugh myself helpless
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36. try to publish my stories
3 cheers1 person
I was doing so well on working towards this goal – registered and trained for this weekend, supersprint, and was making the distance. Then a month ago I got ill – and I’ve spent most of the last month in hospital. I feel so flabby and tired all the time now, and really fed up that my training (and entrance fee) went to waste.
On the other hand, I came through two bouts of surgery with minimal fuss, something I couldn’t have done a year ago when I was still smoking and more overweight. And yesterday I started back into training – I walked up a hill .75km above sealevel, a distance of 12 miles. (I don’t feel so good today physically!)
It’s so hard to pick up after six months of real health struggle. I feel middle aged and that it’s always one difficult step forward then three slips backwards. (Is this what ageing is?)
Don’t want to fight; don’t want to go back to work; don’t want to exercise; just want to sit and eat chocolate and watch TV. I have been out of hospital for 6 days now; I’ve done lots of useful work around the house and walked a lot. But I don’t WANT to do this I want to slob about.
I bought high heels, purple, in a sale. They’re really lovely but I don’t know if I can really wear these: I’m just not that sort of person.
Having a lot of thoughts about the role of clothes in identity. Clothes are part of how I present myself to other people; I generally present myself as matronly, dowdy, poor posture, tatty clothes, like I don’t care. I want to care, but I also don’t want to buy into the idea that this is what’s important about someone, rather than how they act and interact.
But why should dressing ok make someone a worse person?
