nitzsche

To my child…

Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying.
Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is.
Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play.
Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.
Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles..
Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by.
Just for this afternoon, I won’t worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.
Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won’t stand over you trying to fix them.
Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald’s and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys..
Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you.
Just! for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.
Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars.
Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favorite TV shows.
Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.
I will think about the mothers and fathers who are searching for their missing children, the mothers and fathers who are visiting their children’s graves instead of their bedrooms, and mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly, and screaming inside that they can’t handle it anymore.
And when I kiss you good night I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer. It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask him for nothing, except one more day…...........

more insights…. in chinese medicine, the liver stands for hun (the heavenly soul) which is about trusting the universe, focusing intentions. hun provides propulsion to change, and is about expression of our emotional self to the fullest. creative expression helps here as does the ability to forgive oneself and others. and appropriate expression of our emotions of course.

a lack of this energy shows as stagnated, retained anger, because of which we cannot move forward, depression, lack of courage, no feeling of purpose in our lives, frustration.

omigod i can’t believe how accurate this all is/was. i was a master at repressing my feelings and who i really was. even repressed my art for the sake of my career. now i know exactly how to change. i’m so grateful to my body for showing me so beautifully what has been going wrong. thank you.

there’s so much of it inside. just gotta let it show. without bothering about whether it’s coming back or not.