nmaloney

I’m still hanging on, though the thought of sneaking one has been popping up more and more. This is dangerous because that is the way I have defeated myself in the past.

There is definately a part of my brain that wants to smoke despite everything that I have done. Its little voice appears every now and then - I know it sounds strange, but that is how it feels. I logically know starting again is totally wrong and that I have defeated the physical cravings – so the ‘voice’ is just the addiction talking to me.

Still standing strong and backing all my fellow quitters.

I still think about smoking, but have remained smoke-free. It’s good and I’m proud of myself, remaining on guard against back-sliding.

I was able to talk with my cousin while she smoked and I was fine; didn’t even think about lighting up.

It’s been 11 days since I quit. This time it was cold turkey after getting myself motivated with a self-hypnosis program. By making quitting a positive process, the cravings and the second guessing were minimized tremendously.

Of course it is a struggle and I went through a rough point last week. Feeling low, slow and a bit sorry for myself. Thank goodness for my level-headed daughter who just talked me into getting active and doing stuff. Since then I’ve made an apron, gone junking at the flea market, called friends and cooked and baked. Just moving really helped.

I’m still holding back from saying the worst is over, because you just never know. I had a smoking dream last night and that scared me. Also, I have quit in the past and then taken it up again when I thought I had it beat. This is a continuing battle with myself, thankful I’m on the winning side today.

Hang in there everyone. Make quitting a positive move; don’t let the addiction tell you otherwise.