Mariellen

Have put up blinds in all the rooms, they are lovely. Have laid bamboo wide board click system flooring throughout the main living areas of the house. Have to finish the beading , have finished 50% of it. My brother is doing that for me. I learnt to use a dropsaw, learnt how to lay floorboards, and have learnt how to put down beading even though i havent helped with that. I am very proud of it and it looks lovely.
So still to finish is the kitchen tiles and carpet in the bedrooms.
I will post photos once Ive got all the furniture out of my bedroom and located my camera :D
Good luck everyone!

I have not had a drink since the 9th June 2008. I am taking Campral to help with the cravings but these days I find I skip the tablets accidentally and I dont really notice. Its not like earlier when I would remember to take the tablets because all I was thinking about was alcohol.
Its a lot like getting over a relationship. for me anyways.. the emotions that I went through etc were almost exactly the same.. the longing etc.
Anyways Ive got a lot done not being pissed and I have been at parties and pubs with friends and family and not felt the need to drink, i love soda water anyways.
I do sometimes miss the fun but I am realising that with my friends and family it was hysterical just because they are, not because I was drunk :)
I think when I am bored or anxious I do sometimes want a drink, but I don’t think about it when I come home from work, and I dont think about it on a Friday night so often. I still think about it sometimes… but not so much.
I feel really good about it. I am very proud of myself and I would say that anyone who feels that their drinking is out of control – do what you can to rein it back in. Feeling like you are not the driver on the journey that is your life is really unfair to yourself.. take control back. we all deserve that, and theres so many ways we are not in control already – dont let a substance rule your thoughts and emotion.
I am glad I am on my way back. I’m wrestling the steering wheel outta their hands. :)

I think my priorities are changing. I think the only time I am really going to be unhappy about my breasts is when I need to show them to someone else. But I just gotta be careful when I pick who I show them to :D I have found good sleep wear that prevents the weight of them causing me too many issues so I am very rarely without support which was the main issue other than aesthetics. Too damn expensive anyways.