I'm doing 41 things
It’s been a long time since I feel like i’ve honestly liked anyone enough to even consider myself in like. I think everyday I forget a little more. I’m starting to realize how badly I was hurt all those years ago, but now that i’ve realized it, it hasn’t helped me at all. I think I would give anything to be hurt again, and to get all the feelings back that came before it. I’m tired of feeling nothing, and hurting others consequently. I’m just waiting now, for some spark. Anything.
wren's Life List
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1. live passionately
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2. make a living with my creativity
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3. see the northern lights
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4. learn to play the violin
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5. escape light pollution and really see the stars
1 entry . 31 cheers2 people -
6. take more pictures
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7. write letters
2 entries . 17 cheers280 people -
8. find a place where I belong
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9. have a garden
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10. live an adventure
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11. ride in a hot air balloon
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12. smile more
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13. not be embarrassed by what's important to me or what makes me happy
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14. help save the environment
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15. have my own library
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16. love more, fear less
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17. try being a graffiti artist
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18. stand in the middle of a sunflower field
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19. visit 10 new places in my city
2 entries . 18 cheers39 people -
20. learn to dance
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21. send a message in a bottle
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22. write anonymous, loving post-its for strangers to find
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23. tell a taxi driver to "follow that car!"
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24. make a postcard and send it to Post Secret
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25. travel
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26. exercise regularly
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27. Learn to cook
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28. learn to like tea
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29. Put a message in a bottle and throw it out to sea
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30. get a tattoo of the constellation cyngus
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31. save a life
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32. learn to drive
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33. keep a blog about my art and progress
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34. drink less soda
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35. See a butterfly migration
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36. make a beautiful, delicious cup of coffee
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37. make a quilt
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38. plant a tree
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39. fall in love with someone who loves me too
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40. Trust the universe
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41. Die knowing that I've lived
2 cheers15 people
How I did it
It made me
Relieved 
How I did it: My mom told me that when I told her why I'd developed insomnia over the summer. I think it sort of helped me start coping with it. I still get pangs of fear once in awhile, but I have more or less come to terms with the idea of not existing. I imagine i'll be sort of tired by then actually. What really helped was realizing that it's something everyone is trying to make their peace with. Read how I did it…
It made me
Sentimental 
How I did it: Fourth of July, two years ago I found a polaroid camera on ebay for $7, so I bought it with the intention of working on my Take More Photos goal. Polaroid film was in decline however, and I realized that I had two deadlines coming up. It was my last year before college, and around then is when polaroid film would be firmly discontinued as well. So I took pictures of all the events and moments I wanted to remember, I'm so glad I did. I mov… Read how I did it…
It made me
highly amused
How I did it: 1. Gather a team: We hard two getaway drivers, 1 distraction, 2 disguise artists, and 1 inside man. 2. Wait: We went at the closing hour, when our inside man assured us it was always clear. 3. Go: We put on our disguises, being that there was one camera on the way in and out, walked in, picked him up, and walked back out where a car was waiting down the street. Our distraction went in first to lead any workers away if necessary, but it wasn't. Read how I did it…
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Recent entries
I’ve never actually wanted a tattoo before. I’ve never wanted any piercing or even wanted to dye my hair, which is a bit odd for an art student, but it’s just not something I felt like I really wanted. I was just recently looking up star images for an animation, and I saw this photo (below). And thought it was the coolest thing. I’m an avid fan of stargazing, and I just thought it was great. I don’t know if I’ll ever do it, but I think i’d really like to. I think my family would be extremely surprised, haha. It’s the only thing they ever told me not to do, but I guess we all doing one of those things at some point anyway.
(The constellation in the photo is Orion.)
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
(Desiderata – Max Ehrmann)
