notcaring

I was so sick of my life one day I was going to end it and I was going to do it after school. Well I led into drinking so I could be “numb” when I did it but the counselor found out what I was doing and I am just really grateful that she called my parents (they didnt do anything) and confronted me.

I stress and there really isnt anything to stress about. I mean I am in the middle of nowhere in a vacation type home and I cant stop worrying and getting that stressed feeling like I have to do something when there is nothing to do. I get ignored alot in my family so I can’t tell anyone anything. I think I am going finally crazy and I cant really care.