nothingbutsmiles

I miss it SO much! I was thinking about joining one of the local women’s leagues. We will see.

I took a lot of art classes in school and it has been so long since I have used my creative outlet.

This is something that I really don’t like about myself. (I guess that would be me criticizing myself) Geez! Anyway… it’s horrible because I am most critical about the people I love. My best friends, my boyfriend, my parents… I don’t know if I am trying to make myself feel better by comparing myself to others or what? I am a bit of a perfectionist, so that probably has a lot to do with it.

I would like to work on this, mostly for my boyfriend. For some reason, whenever he talks about work, his family, etc., I spout off my opinion, when he really just wants me to listen. He’s just trying to blow off steam, and I feel the need to have an opinion on everything…. for some reason I love to play devil’s advocate. We have talked about this so many times, and I am really trying to improve. I feel horrible criticizing the person whom I love the very most… and I don’t understand why I do it.

Anyway, I am hoping this is something I will grow out of.