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1. i was able to attend class the whole week.
2. i was able to do many exercises in math.
3. i was able to attend and pass the requirements.
4. i was able to raise my grade in psychology a bit. (but he was tight in giving grades.
5. i was able to research for psychology.

downside:
1. i wasn’t able to participate and contribute in our theology class.

Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves.
- Carl Jung

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i am honestly down at the moment and i thought i can’t do this

my accomplishments:
1. commute from baguio to manila to our house (not perfect, not comfortable and not confident yet) (monday, feb.14)
2. i answered all the questions in my psych subject. (wed. feb.15)
3. paint (friday, feb. 17)

to find a miracle, be the miracle.

i went in UP and got a schedule.

jan.-apr. drum lessons
self study guitars
apr.-may boxing class or/and gym/summer job with pare

To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart.
- Eleanor Roosevelt

okaei, i admit sometimes i want to do many things that i end up not doing anything. and other times, it seems that i don’t want to do anything or i can’t figure out what i want to do. so i’m making a list of the things i want to do and set a specific date on when i will do it.

the things i want to do:
1. find a place where i can mountain bike freely.
– this is important because i dont want to feel uneasy while biking. i want to feel comfortable and ofcourse safe from bad people, etc.
2. buy a mountain bike
– last dec., it was worth 2000+ bucks, i want to buy a mountain bike for exercise.
3. learn more about tuning the guitar and figure out if the guitar is in the right tune. learn and memorize the sound of the standard tune and memorize the sound of each chord.

these are the things that i want to do. i don’t have the energy and the motivation to do these so i don’t think i’l be able to do these. but if ever i’ll make it, it will be a miracle.

i need to be convinced that it will be worth it or atleast, someone will testify (and not justify..) i mean, i hope that if someone will comment, it will be a sincere answer and not just to try to say that it is a good buy when it’s not just to lessen his/her regret on buying it.

i didn’t get the satisfaction i used to get from reading and finishing a book. maybe i can learn to improve my reading skills and learn and get used to understanding books in English so that i can enjoy both local and foreign books.

i thought it was hard at first but i’m happy i already know how to play it

1. get out of bed.
2. play computer.
3. i took a bath at around 5:30 in the afternoon.

so far, it’s a nice feeling baby sitting your younger sister. i’ll probably do this again occassionally.

1. we were not able to jog and play badminton.
2. we might not able to go to ust.

1. i had my breakfast at 10 am.
2. i took a bath at 12pm.
3. i downloaded a real player at 9:30pm

december 20, 2005

here are my accomplishments for today or the things that i was able to do:

1. i got up in the morning
2. i had my breakfast
3. okay before i continue, those who are able to read this may say, “what? are these accomplishments?” but well, i have to do this so that i’l know what i was able to do during the day. and i think this is better than just lying on the bed, doing nothing or moping and keep on worrying.
4. i had my lunch.
5. i talked to my (bestest friend) on the phone..Ü
6. i cleaned my messy room.
7. i had a snack – 3 isaw and a bottle of C2! yum-yum..Ü
8. take a bath and dress up nicely and neatly.
9. buy food for the whole week by commuting.
10. well, this is it. can i write that i was able to write here..?

here are the things that i have to do tonight which i wasn’t able to do during the day:
1. do my theology paper
2. study in math.
3. study and prepare for sociology.

dec. 12, 2005

okay, well maybe i’m pretty hard on myself. i actually finished one book that has many pages with small font size. but i borrowed 4 books from the library to read and another book which my (best friend) gave me. so i haven’t finish a single. i just have to remind myself, one hour a day, one book at a time, concentrate. i hope that this would work.

you know, when you can hardly deal with people, it’s just hard to function. my classmate is not texting yet and i hope i wouldn’t have to call her. i get stresed out with lots of talk to strangers. well, i just wish that today and tomorrow will past by easily.

i’ve done this before.