nynyc98

This is my first post…ever. It freaks me out that I have lost so much control. I went to bed last night, after a full day of binging…and told myself tomorrow I stop binging, forever. I went to bed disgusted and in pain from the amount of food I had eaten all day. I woke up this morning and started the disgusting habit of binging again. I don’t know how much more I can take of this.

Want to hear the worst part of this all? I am studying to be a nutritionist so I can counsel people who suffer from eating disorders. But I can’t even help myself. My friends all think Im narotic about eating healthy…and thats because they don’t know how I binge when I am alone. I’m not fat, but in my mind I am overweight and am therefore unhappy with my overall appearance. I put on a front and make everyone believe I am strong and in control.

I need to stop this binging. I am hurting so bad and need the support of others that are feeling what I am feeling. I think I know how to stop this cycle but I don’t. I cry when nobody is looking, and I can’t pretend to be strong anymore. These support websites are all new to me, but I look forward to the support from others.