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it is kind of hard to meet people when your white blood cell count is always low, but thats going to change soon and when it does I can finally go out and meet more people and get more involved at school. I really found out who were my real friends and who werent last year, so I think its time to meet some new people and just have fun. High school is finally finished and I can leave all that immature crap in the past. I just want to live life to the fullest and have a good time. Its unbelievable how fast life passes you by and how much of a blessing it is just to be living right now.

when did I get major writer’s block and stop writing lyrics all the time? I think it might have been when I realized all my unrequited, love from afar-type crushes would never work out. But all hope is not lost..my last two years of being sick are plenty of emotion-filled inspiration to make up for it. Now the only challenge is to keep it all from being too depressing.

So for years now my back has hurt on and off…and much as I’d like to believe it’s normal, I am now starting to think it might be another symptom of depression 0.0 ..But my posture is also not great…so I need to improve on that and stand straight, look confident, etc etc. I feel so tightly wound up sometimes I don’t even realize how tense my body is. It’s time to change it up.