I am such a momma. I am only 20, but that doesn’t matter. I watch my friends, I take care of them, I question them, always checking and fretting about…
Then everything in my own life I question so much I get nervous and scared and worry so much it drives people insane and away from me.
I know if I could let everything role a bit, and still take care of my friends-but a bit less overwhelmingly, I’d be a lot happier, and people around me would feel better. Then I could finally just enjoy what’s there instead of focusing on thoughts of it not being there so hard that it’s gone.
Feb 02, 08:09PM PST | 0 comments
Campus ministry told me they are now really only accepting people into education or people with previous international experience because they have so many applicants and can be more selective.
I also realized that the idea of living alone in a foreign country freaks me out, and so going with a religious group that live in communities sounds better… however I won’t go to Africa, limiting my choices. Also, not being in education really limits me.
I’m becoming so distressed about this, I really don’t want to have to revise this particular dream, but maybe to do my good volunteer work abroad I’ll have to get established with a film institute and do projects on a smaller-scale abroad with video.
I just worry not going now will make me settle down and not want to go away, but still be left with the burning desire to continue my volunteer work and travel abroad all at once.
Feb 02, 08:03PM PST | 1 cheer | 1 comment
So, I’ve been trying and trying and pretty much decided that I’m not going to find one a I agree with 100%. But for now, I am a spiritual person, in my own ways, and that really is enough.
When I have a family, I think I’d like to find a church so they can have that extra sense of community, and become spiritual too-or learn that it is important-whether they follow what we start them on or not, just starting them will make them see a spiritual side is necessary.
But hey, I’m 20. I think for now, since I’ve looked and realized I’m okay without a defined definition of what I am religiously.
Jun 10, 2008, 12:22PM PDT | 0 comments
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