octoberclovered

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  1. 1. never settle for anything less than I deserve
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    426 people
  2. 2. smile and enjoy
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    2 people
  3. 3. change someone's life for the better
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    441 people
  4. 4. actually do to my to do list
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    1 person
  5. 5. stop worrying
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  6. 6. live among the Amish for a week
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    5 people
  7. 7. do 3 nice things every day...because I remember hearing somewhere that maybe all the world's problems could be solved if everyone did 3 nice things a day
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    33 people
  8. 8. Make my body as healthy as it can be
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    2 people
  9. 9. buy a 1966 blue mustang convertible
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    5 people
  10. 10. keep up my scrapbook journal
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    1 person
  11. 11. trust in love
    8 people
  12. 12. Nurture my relationships
    4 people
  13. 13. Read all the books I've bought but haven't read yet.
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    8 people
  14. 14. show my writing to someone
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    1 person
  15. 15. get my driver's license
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    4,905 people
  16. 16. see the thing that is genuinely beautiful about every person
    180 people
  17. 17. recite a Shakespeare soliloquy in front of lots of people who aren't expecting it (like in an airport terminal, or in a movie theatre line)
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    35 people
  18. 18. find the balance between talking too much and talking too little
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    10 people
  19. 19. be more politically active
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    228 people
  20. 20. start wearing hats
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    18 people
  21. 21. empty out my box of half-finished products
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    1 person
  22. 22. Create a personal recipe book
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    605 people
  23. 23. learn the constellations
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    545 people
  24. 24. host a murder mystery dinner party
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    18 people
  25. 25. create my own "family"
    3 people
  26. 26. Go on a road trip
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    3,329 people
  27. 27. work hard, love doing it along the way, and always always be able to say I did all I could, gave it my all and had the most fun with what I was given.
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    1 person
  28. 28. Learn Self Defense
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    232 people
  29. 29. write and share a "This I Believe" essay
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    33 people
  30. 30. Create a beautiful uplifting morning routine
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    94 people
  31. 31. I want to leave a mix cd/tape on a bench
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    78 people
  32. 32. get braces
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    562 people
  33. 33. go to australia
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    1,848 people
  34. 34. Learn to surf
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    7,095 people
  35. 35. have an amazing collection of shoes before I need to start spending my money on "practical" things!
    1 person
  36. 36. bungee jump off a bridge
    21 people
  37. 37. stop feeling the need to always express and explain
    8 people
  38. 38. realise there's no catch
    2 people
Recent entries
stop worrying
everyone will love this... 5 months ago

I am such a momma. I am only 20, but that doesn’t matter. I watch my friends, I take care of them, I question them, always checking and fretting about…
Then everything in my own life I question so much I get nervous and scared and worry so much it drives people insane and away from me.
I know if I could let everything role a bit, and still take care of my friends-but a bit less overwhelmingly, I’d be a lot happier, and people around me would feel better. Then I could finally just enjoy what’s there instead of focusing on thoughts of it not being there so hard that it’s gone.



Join the Peace Corps (read all 3 entries…)
Proving Difficult 5 months ago

Campus ministry told me they are now really only accepting people into education or people with previous international experience because they have so many applicants and can be more selective.
I also realized that the idea of living alone in a foreign country freaks me out, and so going with a religious group that live in communities sounds better… however I won’t go to Africa, limiting my choices. Also, not being in education really limits me.
I’m becoming so distressed about this, I really don’t want to have to revise this particular dream, but maybe to do my good volunteer work abroad I’ll have to get established with a film institute and do projects on a smaller-scale abroad with video.

I just worry not going now will make me settle down and not want to go away, but still be left with the burning desire to continue my volunteer work and travel abroad all at once.



find a church
Untitled 13 months ago

So, I’ve been trying and trying and pretty much decided that I’m not going to find one a I agree with 100%. But for now, I am a spiritual person, in my own ways, and that really is enough.
When I have a family, I think I’d like to find a church so they can have that extra sense of community, and become spiritual too-or learn that it is important-whether they follow what we start them on or not, just starting them will make them see a spiritual side is necessary.

But hey, I’m 20. I think for now, since I’ve looked and realized I’m okay without a defined definition of what I am religiously.



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