1) Realising yesterday night that it’s ok to let your gaurd down and let others who love you, comfort you when you need it, cause really, we all need it.
2) My robe. It’s ugly, yup, I don’t know if those are yellow teddybears on it or rats or some wierd coloured creature but whatever, it’s warm. And this is a cold swedish sunday morning.
3) I have a slightly annoying stomach ache right now, reminding me I’m human ;)... but that’s all that’s wrong with my health at the moment. thank god.
4) My mom’s phone call, it was very short, she just called to see if I was ok, and making it seem like it’s all that matters to her in the world.
5) Writing my first entry under this goal and noticing how happy it just made me!
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why the hell am I so picky? or maybe not.
I wouldn’t say I have the highest standards in the world, but if it’s one thing I want too feel in a relationship, it’s just a sense of understanding, both for him and myself. “Clicking” is probably what I value the most, as well as unselfishness, care, trust, and a sense of independance ( yes I’m aware that there is more). However, I often get into something where the other person does not value the same things as I do, and they might even be in love while I have no idea how this is possible. We are in the very same relationship, howcome I can not grasp that what we have is “enough” or how come he doesn’t see that it’s really not.
On the other hand, as much as I may think that this is the person for me, he looks good on paper so to say, there’s no love, and I can’t deny my gut feeling.
What to do, what to do?
Now my freinds say I may expect too much. Truth is i expect what I’m willing to give… All I expect from him is a want to change for us the things that are hurting us. Is that too much? Will I ever be satisfied. I’m a novice when it comes to real relationships, beleive you me. So will reality finally catch up with me and maybe, just maybe, in some weird twisted way, unblind me, make me expect less, and make this whole love thing easier?
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... breathes in and out
So, it sure has been a while 42 things, ah your like an old freind, familiar and comforting, we were bound to meet again..
Can not beleive I’m half way through this goal, oh trust me, advanced vector calculus, statitstics, working with space, and all that huge chunk of pure math and analytical crap that they prepare with you has been hell, but I’m proud to say I’ve passed all my courses and made a lot of Chinese friends too:). oooo companies will want me haha. So I’m stopping myself in the midst of it all to commend myself, so I can look at this when things get tough and remind myself to keep going because I know, they will get harder. YES, KEEP GOING.
KEEP GOING, ohblah.
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