I'm doing 17 things
will I ever find the words to say what I mean
dishonesty, I’m a dishonest girl
you’re trying to convince me to trust in you
but what if I don’t believe in you
you don’t even believe yourself
you don’t think I can see it in your eyes
I don’t recognize you, I try to search for meaning
I draw a blank
you’re so shallow but you don’t even see it
because you’re always right, RIGHT?
well what if I told you, you never really knew me?
I lie I lie I lied to you
I was always lying to you
I thought you could change me
I thought you could recreate me
but a year has passed and I remain dissapointed
not as much in you but in myself
I promised I’d never love again
and I let you in
I fucking let you in
and now I’m sitting here
alone in a room with you
feeling tired of fighting back the truth
these feelings that would devestate your precious ego
