I’ve started a febraury challenge on my meditation centre facebook page. this means i have to write a comment each day i meditate and i’ve got at least one person keeping tabs on me.
I had hoped to get others to join in but the window of opportunity to get them doing this is not so great and no one else has joined in yet.
well i know that one has to come at a daily practice in their own way and while this might motivate me, others have to find what motivates them.
Had a meeting with them yesterday.
They have written us a support letter and done a few other things that will help us.
we can use their back verandah for a meditation session adn it might only cost us $10 which we can probably afford.
they will promote us to their members.
and other stuff. I’ve been struggling for their support for months and months and its been upsetting because they are the most important local organisation for our cause. they have a high profile in the town. To not be supported by them is a problem. I had always wanted to work in a cooperative sort of way with them.
I made a mistake about this . We would have to pay again. Its impossible to find somewhere that doesn’t want payment. Its a money hungry town this one. Not much generosity here.
I still think about these things but i am bored with trying to think about what i did for someone else and what someone else did for me so that i can write it down.
I am doing stuff when the chance comes up.
I had a business idea to generate a good stream of income. Now it seems i’m going to have start talking about to certain people. I hope it doesn’t mean that someone else will steal our thunder.
We will have to do some fundraising to generate money to extend our insurance coverage.
I was happy with last night’s meditation too. There were 2 new faces. And we covered our $30 hall hire fee.
I did an involved body scanning meditation which i think went ok.
I was pleased that the meditators who came last night had all done a bit before so they could cope with it.
Only e and i were there for the first one but i had my cushion and managed not to move at all for the duration which is what this style is partly about. Today i’m just fixing up some appointment confusions.
I haven’t done much this week on the submissions and application processes. Much to be done there.
I did a good one hour goenka meditation tonight. I was very pleased with myself. Its not easy to sit still without moving a muscle for 60 minutes.
Then i did 1.5 hours guided meditation in teh group and earlier today. I really wish i could do one hour a day like i did with the group tonight. But its so hard to sit when there are other things pulling you away all the time.
I should try harder.
I went to get a load of mill mud today from my friend the farmer. I began putting it out around the white hibiscus. The idea is that because i am trying to grow next to a row of trees they haven’t had enough root room to grow in so i’m providing more room by giving them some more dirt and this particular dirt is very rich and nutritious – being from sugar cane waste.
Anyway lately i’ve realised a better plan for the forest. I used to imagine it as a proper rainforest undergrowth or garden under the trees but now i see that’s not such a great idea. The shrubs don’t get enough sunlight and and there’s not much that i can grow in there except some ground covers. These i will try to grow over the whole floor of the forest slowly in time.
The problem is water. Another reason not to try to plant too much in there. I shouldn’t be adding too many more sprinkling lines around the property – it all adds to the power bill, more work for me and takes too much out of the underground water – best leave some for others.
So now instead i will just try to get the front rows really thick to serve as a privacy barrier. And around my little kitchen area i may have a bit of a garden but apart from that i shouldn’t worry about planting stuff in the forest. Although i did think about adding some palms, though to get them to grow tall in any decent amount of time would require a lot of water so i probably shouldn’t try to do that. Instead, i should just let the existing saplings grow up and fill in any gaps that emerge in the forest. There was a time when i went round pulling them all out as it was mostly one species that was emerging but i think now i’ll just leave them be.
I must say that i am a lot happier about this plan since i came up with it than what i wanted to do before. I think the forest will be lovely this way. At the moment there is a lot of grass growing in it which is not lovely but i don’t want to pull it out becuase it helps a little to block the view into the place from the road. Its very long grass. But i will be pleased when i can pull all of it out.
I didn’t go to sleep that’s why i’m up. The heat is messing about with my sleep patterns. Not to mention my motivation.
A few hot dry days and today good rain again. I just had finished transplanting some things when the rain came so perfect timing.
I keep forgetting about this goal. But today i remembered this and a couple of other “promises” to meditate more often and made myself go and do it. I forgot my clock so don’t know how long it was. It could have been 20 minutes.
A week or so ago, i had the idea to have a meditation at a local beach for last saturday night. I got a bit of promotion for it but there was not enough interest to go ahead with it.
There are several reasons for its failure. the weather was looking a bit dodgy most of the time although it turned out to be perfect conditions.
Someone didn’t like it when i suggested people could bring their dogs if they wanted. So i’d better not do that again even though i think teh dogs would be well enough behaved not to bother anyone.
None of my usual supporters were able to make it because of other committments. I think next time i should start off iwth a commitment from those who attend the regular group.
I woke up without planning today on time at 5.30 …. or maybe about 3 minutes past but that’s good enough for me.
It must be due to the event i’ve got planned for this evening.
1. Washed dad’s dishes
2. helped him sort out his email problem
1. Although its her job, TGC phoned me back and gave a good listening ear to my idea. I am grateful for her input. She seems to care which is unusual in council.
I am not sure whether to put this here or in the other spot. Its about fundraising. I’ve had an idea for some time about how to raise funds for the project – to provide an income stream for running the building and perhaps add to other areas where we may need it.
Today i shared my idea with a woman i trust at the council. she said she thought it would not be that complicated. HOwever, i’ve jsut realised that i’m not sure whether this means i should put it in my land submission or business plan. etc
So 3 new people turned up. One who i was expecting but also new and two who’ve come along for the third or fourth time. Plus me.
I am really happy with this turn of events. Of course i cna’t assume that all will continue to come. Two people in that group can’t come next week.
Also most of them did not donate much. so even with 7 people, we did not cover the venue hire fee.
1. Some supportive comments on the depression website i think.
2. lead the meditation group
3. Offered Dad a chocolate biscuit.
Two people offered showed an interest in my project and have invited me to send them info. One seems very keen to support us.
Had a meditation session today.2.5 hours.
She’s still got a sore foot.
I phoned the Australia council today to see if there was anyway that they could help us. All the awarsd that i’ve looked seem not to be applicable for us. That’s why i phoned. She said that it could be that an artist when we find one from a preliminary design, could apply to develop their ideas. That only leaves the matter of paying for the competition thingo in the first place to find that first idea, and the artist.
I’ve made an appointment with the art gallery director to talk about how we could go about getting this part of hte project up and going. YOu can’t get funding for competitions but you can probably get it for something else or anyway i am sure she will have some ideas of how to go about it all.