I'm doing 39 things
So tired of the yo yo dieting and all that goes with it. But here I am again so uncomfortable in my own skin. So…mom and I are going to start Weight Watchers on Thursday. I know the basic formula of success on this journey, but need to truly incorporate these changes into my lifestyle for good. We’re committing to 9 weeks and we’ll see where we are at when the 9 weeks have been completed. I just know I can be that woman I see in my minds eye. I can be healthy and free of this excess baggage. I can be active and energized. The time is now to make the commitment to taking care of myself in a positive and healthy way. I’ll update once we get started!
Jillene's Life List
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1. Surround Myself Only With Things I Love
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2. straighten out my financial karma
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3. Make Time and Space to Be Still
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4. learn baby sign language
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5. Buy a Home
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6. Reach My Ideal Level of Fitness
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7. Learn To Use My Sewing Machine
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8. establish a spiritual retreat
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9. become an interfaith minister
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10. Become a Mentor
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11. Stop the Cycle of Gossip
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12. Stop Making Assumptions
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13. Always Do My BEST
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14. Go Swimming
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15. write and illustrate a children's book
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16. really forgive, which means really forgetting
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17. Release the Need for External Validation
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18. Be a camp counselor
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19. Trust My Internal Guidance System
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20. Create an alternative healing center
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21. Heal my emotional scars
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22. Find Balance
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23. become more environmentally conscious
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24. hike or bike the appalachian trail
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25. Learn to S.C.U.B.A. dive
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26. turn my poetry into songs that I can share with the world
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27. Stop Saying Sorry When I Have Nothing For Which To Apologize
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28. be present in the moment
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29. sell my crafts
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30. Learn to play guitar
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31. promote and establish eco friendly communities
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32. Become a Reiki Master
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33. Take an Art Class
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34. Organize all stray phone numbers and addresses
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35. Take a Stained-Glass Class With My Husband
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36. perform random acts of kindness
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37. Please stop me from snapping back in that same sarcastic judgmental bitchy tone that the women in my family are so prone to...
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38. believe in myself, never doubt myself, love myself no matter what
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39. promote Allen Carr's Easyway to other 43ers who want to stop smoking
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How I did it
It made me
awed and grateful 
How I did it: We trained for natural childbirth, but at 32 weeks the baby went into frank breech presentation. We exhausted ourselves trying different techniques to get him to turn into proper head down position, but it wasn't meant to be. We ended up with an emergency c-section at 00:05 on Easter Sunday (4/12/09). Gabriel Orion was 4 lbs 14.6 oz and 18" long. He had some complications and stayed in the NICU for 8 days. Read how I did it…
Recent entries
that I revisit my poetry.
In my many years of angst, writing was one of few ways for me to get any relief. Even if writing about an issue didn’t create a solution, it was a means to get it out of my head. I always wondered if I might someday add music to the poems to turn them into songs.
Recently a friend had come across some of my old poetry. Twice now she’s mentioned that I might want to revisit some of them. I feel like this is an urging for me to follow through and see if any of them would lend themselves to music.
So that’s my intention…to revisit my poetry, see if any would lend themselves to music and end up with some kind of finished product and get my truth out there into the world.
On July 1st last year we discovered we were pregnant. We hadn’t been actively trying so the news came as a bit of a shock. Before we’d even adjusted to the news, I started having complications. Within 6 days I was in the hospital for emergency surgery due to a ruptured fallopian tube. What a scary, crazy time. My husband was beside himself with the idea of losing us both. I’m grateful I am ok, and while I wanted to bring that little tyke into the world, I believe things unfolded as they did for some cosmic reason.
This tiny life gave us many gifts. It brought my husband and his father back into a relationship and has motivated me to take better care of my body in preparation to try again.
So while we’re not trying yet, I’ve lost 25 pounds and am almost ready to tackle removing nicotine from my life (again). I know now I have to do these things for myself first, which is another lesson I’ve learned from all that has transpired.
