I’m doing quite well with this diary. I usually start and stop a lot. I think this time it’s because I’ve not been restricting myself. With my old diaries it used to annoy me if I missed writing for a day or two and I’d give up. But this time round I’ve decided that if I’m too busy to write one day, then that’s fine because that in itself shows something in my diary.
Not quite sure when to know that I’ve ‘completed’ this though. Any suggestions.
I narrowed it down to two books a few days ago and I’ve just sat and read lots of the first one.
I then realised the other book had a contents page of chapter titles so I found it quite quickly once I’d realised that.
Chapter 5 The Game
Quote “Oh yes; the game was to just find something about everything to be glad about – no matter what ‘twas.”
Is odd, I vaguely remembering starting this book quite a few years ago. And I don’t remember the story line, just this one game.
I saw this on the list of someone that cheered one of my entries and it made me want to do it. Me and my friend always used to send random post to each other but we haven’t for a while. Last thing I got from her was a new pair of ears (Comic Relief ones) because I’d said my ears hurt after a gig. Anyone got any posting tips?
Spent all morning doing this. I even decided to use one of my spare folders to store achievements related to 43things.
I’ve already identified that organising things makes me happy. So I’ve decided I should organise all my school work. I’ve done it before and let it slip but when I finish organising it I get such a good feeling.
I’ve become pretty good at it really. Everything always has an entry, however random and pointless it is. Just sorta became habit. Think it helps give me reason for doing everything I’m doing.
Constantly denying these things from me and other people.
I used to be really open with my emotions, too open. And now, well now I can’t express them at all. I can’t even cry to anyone now.
I need to face all my fears, or at least admit them.
Yuck Yuck Yuck Yuck.
In other words, I hated it. I’ve always thought I should try it, and I’m a wimp when it comes to new food, so when my mum bought it I figured it’d be good to finally be able to say I tried it.
I had a tuna one. Cos I usually love tuna. But it’s put me right off.
I like having things to look forward to. And she cheered me. So it happened to be her. That and I’ll need something cheerful and positive in the summer after getting my results.
Although I only decided to do this a few days ago, I’ve figured I seem to be ok at doing it. And right now, I think there’s more important things to be focussing on doing instead of worrying about whether I ALWAYS have 43 things.
I just sat thinking about what I did today. And I almost cried…cos I’m a horrible person and didn’t really do anything. I suppose the one thing I did do was offer to go into school an hour early tomorrow so the French speaking teacher doesn’t have to sit around for 2 extra hours just to see me.
I’m doing it for A Level, not because I want to but because my Mum said I had to. And I started bottom of the class, and the problem with me is I have little self belief so I went in with a failing attitude. And today my French teacher basically said I can’t expect to pass at the rate I’m going, mainly because I hate talking in front of anyone. And I just wanted to cry, and had to try so hard not to. So I want to prove everyone, including me, wrong. And show that I can do well. I really hope I do.
Took me a lot longer than I thought. I had lots of quotes already but there were lots I didn’t use and I got lots of good new ones. Either way, I have 100 printing now as we speak. In pink and red for extra happiness.
Although I’m writing these things down somewhere else I wanted to share today’s positive point cos I’m excited about it.
At 7am this morning the phone rang. I considered ignoring it and going back to sleep. For some reason I didn’t. And when I answered, I was told the good news, that my aunty had a baby last night.
She called her Amelia Rose. So finding that out was definitely the highlight of my day.
I’ve just realised, this isnt going to work cos I didn’t start on the 1st of the month. So I’m gonna stop for this month and start on the first of April.
Doing so well with this. I forget. So I’m going to set up an email reminder.
I like getting cheers. So I’m guessing everyone does. And cheers are there for a reason so why not use them?
Quite a few of the things on my list are similar, but I figure that’s just cos there’s a person I’m trying to be.
I’ve already confessed I’m selfish. So what better way to work towards being less selfish that to make someone feel good about themselves.