ouzfreak09

So i tried to turn my life around at this new years even and i realized how wrong i was and all of this major epiphany stuff and i swore this new year would not have any masturbating in it…or at least a month. sadly today my new years resolution was obliterated. I have no clue what to do and im starting to get frustrated and im beginning to wonder if all the stress is worth it…but i know that in the long run it will be. so pray for me everyone and ill try to remember to do the same.

I couldnt even go one day. My life sucks but im determined to beat this thing. B/c of my problem somehow someone stole our checking account number and now my mom is calling the police and bank to investigate it and im afraid shell find out it was me who started it. I really dont want to have to tell her what a disappointment i am to her. I really dont want to see the look on her face when she realizes that im a horrible person. Has anyone had to tell their parents or someone else? I need to find the best approach.

All i am is a huge disappointment to God. I want to stop but this thing is stronger than i am. I feel like God has abandoned me and there is no one here to help me at all. I want to live for God but this thing is stopping me. I need help and I have no idea where to find it, except here. Guys pray for me because at this point that’s all that is going to help me. I feel like I’m falling and there seems to be no bottom, no ending, no point when ill just stop and be finished. I want my life to be past this point.