Tracy

Ok, so while I am not a drama queen, my life seems to be filled to the brim with constant drama. I am trying to get away from the people and issues in my life that are causing that, but in doing so, I have almost completely dumped all of my old friends and things I used to do. Now I feel kind of empty, but am finally starting to find new friends and fill my time with worth while activities. I have joined two very different bowling leagues. One is all older people who are just awesome and each week is a great learning experience as well as having time with people who are much more experienced and level in their lives than me. My other league is filled with people of all ages and it is more of a “party” league. It is a good mix for me since I am at an age where I am in between the two things. I also have maintained a few really good bible studies and been involved with church. But this past summer, things happened, and I feel like I am back to square one. I hope that when school starts and my activities start back up, I can get back to where I was last year.

while I do have my own plan, I recognize that it isn’t always the best and others might better plans. I have reduced my debt from 32K down to under 14K in two years so that is a good start, but not only do I want that 14K gone, but I also want to pay off my car and pay my house off 15 years early. That is my plan. So far, I have been very aggressive in it, but it is starting to get hard with the economy being what it is. But to compensate, we stopped eating out. We used to blow 60.00 for a meal at least two to three times a week. Now we don’t even do that once a month. But I still can’t give up the starbucks. However, I did buy my own expresso machine and I do make my own drinks from time to time to help curb that craving. I know there is probably more that I can give up, but at the moment, I can’t think of anything that I am willing to give up.

But it is hard with three kids and running in different directions. I go into other peoples houses and they seem to be so put together with alot of nice things perfectly placed. I don’t have that. I have toys and clutter and mismatched picture frames. I have dishes everywhere eventhough I do dishes twice a day, and no matter how often I sweep or vacuum my floors, they seem to be full of lint and crumbs within hours. I just want a quiet, calm, peaceful house where my family can relax, eat a nice meal, hang out.