pacmanismylover

Sometimes I want to try really hard and other times I just feel like whats the point. I don’t want this marriage to be a mistake but god it feels like it sometimes. I have no clue how two people who have no idea or example of how a good marriage is supposed to be make it work without killing eachother.

At least we both have life insurance. Although it won’t do much good if the other person ends up in prison.

It’s not 100% bad, but the bad things are so frequent these days that it feels like the good just gets piled over by all the bull shit.

The aquarium near me in connecticut has a program where you can play with a penguin. It costs like $60 which I don’t have right now but damnit I will make this happen before I move away end of next year.

We were jack asses about this move. When we moved all the clothes we mixed up the clean ones with the dirty ones so I have to wash and put away all our clothes. I HATE LAUNDRY. Luckily we don’t have any dishes but two bowls some cups and plastic silverware so no piles of dishes. If I can just get it all put away then it’s all just maintenence from there. Getting there though is the battle.

I’m not martha stewart in fact I kind of want to choke her right now. Unless she were to bakes me something yummy then I think I could forgive her making me feel like a horible person for not being a cheery homemaker. Something with strawberries…..