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This single goal could change my entire life.

I’m the girl who in high school was too shy to even get up and sharpen a pencil, because people would look at me.

I’m the girl who keeps her hair long, so no one will see her face.

I’m the girl with really no friends, even after attending three high schools.

I’m the girl who will let life pass her by, because living life means others will be there watching.

I’m the girl no one wants to approach, because she’s too shy and awkward around others.

“I’m sorry for being in your way while you weren’t looking like you should have been.”

“I’m sorry for accusing you, when I have clear proof you’re lying.”

“I’m sorry for being upset when you’re letting me down again.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Sorry.”

“Oh, sorry.”

. . .

It seems like I will apologize for every little thing in the world, like it’s all my fault. But I rarely hear those words back…Why is it that even when I’m hurting and in tears, I’m still the one apologizing?

“Some habits are just hard to break.”