palmtree12

Sometimes in life loneliness creeps from the dark and puts a shadow on the happiness I try so desperately to create. I know and feel when this shadow lurks, tugging at my new unstable sense of peace, trying hard to dampen my spirits. Most times I have the strength to fight my demons and persevere on but today my strength is simply, not enough. I never blame anyone but my self for I know everything that happens in my life is a result of which I have thought. On good days I am a fearless leader willing to take on the world and every problem that exists. Other times I am a coward unable to look at myself in the mirror. I have always dream t that I would be someone successful that people would look to or need for inspiration in one’s own life. Through this success I believed I would find my happiness by traveling the world and spreading my love for all to cherish. Especially those who need love the most, helpless little children whose spirits have been broken and whose hope has been blinded. My reality tells me I need them just as much as they need me but right now though I am locked away behind a door where no one can get in. I am lost and I am lonely hoping and praying that the sun will shine again and the demons are gone.