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Happiness and security is not in debt but in freedom from overspending and putting money away for the future.

If I am to live authentically and truly find happiness then I must be the first priority in my life. How else can I have anything to offer the people i love and cherish in my life?

Six months ago I met a man through internet dating. We have had 6 of the best months of my life. I am 42 and been through many relationships good and bad. He is a lovely, funny, caring man. However my biggest problem is that inevitably I give too much. Too much time, energy, resources, and mostly I give too much energy and attention to other peoples lives and lose focus on my own…thus leaving me empty and dissapointed…ultimately I then blame the relationship and end it…supporting a long standing belief that I am in fact unloveable….which is just simply untrue. It is easier to believe in my unloveability than to simply value myself enough to state what I need and believe I am worth my partner giving me my space to develop my own life and maintain my identity. Why would he want me to lose myself? Then he would lose me too… the silly games we play. I fear losing him by being fallable…when ultimatley it will be my perfectionism that could destroy us…it is all so simply complicated…