Here I am again, stuck in the hell that is admin when I’d rather be making art and being creative. This time I have to do something about it. I’m so focused on money all the time, I think that paying all the bills and eating well and buying pretty dresses is necessary. Well it’s not, what’s suffering here is my quality of life. I go to work and spend all day doing a job I dislike, a job that does nothing for my prospects, future, creativity, a job that pays me enough to live on, then when I leave my life really begins, that’s the time where I make work and put plans in place for my creative future, but I’ve come to realise it just isn’t enough. If this is really what I want to do (and I’m 100% certain it is) then I need to start acting that way, making sacrafices for this, which includes putting the dresses on hold, eating cheaply, throwing that darn chinese menu away! But most of all if I am serious about this, I need to set myself deadlines and stick to them. I am not an administrator, I never was, therefore It shouldn’t be a job that I do.
Obviously I’m not an idiot, I know I can’t just walk out. Oh gosh how amazing would it be to just walk out! I’m moving to a new house in September, a beautiful handsome new house that is red on the outside by the way. It’s a new beginning so with a new house and new flatmates and a new neighbourhood, must come a change in my work circumstances too. I need to find a job that is (a) in the arts or related to the arts (b) part time© Money will be tight but the way I see it, there is no other option for me. I will survive because I have to survive, ten years ago I lived off £300 a month. Just last year when I was studying I was living off £500 a month. In Glasgow I lived off only my student loan and a few cash in hand jobs. I lived off nothing but lentils and rice. If I can do it then, I can do it now.
My goal is to leave my admin job by 30th September. I have things in place that will subsidise some of that income at least and it means I can spend time on making art. I’ve recently discovered the joys of screen printing again so the possibilities for that are endless. I also have two exhibitions coming up later this year, one of them is a selling exhibition, get in!
I even might just bite the bullet and do a post 16 teaching certificate, which would be far better than the job I do now.
