patgoral

I don’t mean escape as in terms of going on vacation or even to utilize drugs for a mental escape. I mean to escape from everything to attempt to achieve nirvana. I want to go somewhere I’ve never heard of, I want to let go of all the things in which I have been socialized to love. I want to escape society, culture, EVERYTHING. I want to find a new life, I don’t wish to rely on money OR theivery for my survival, I wish to just EXIST. I wish to not rely on drugs AT ALL! Their use is only to create an “artificial feeling of escape” from this mundane world, but through my very own cynical eyes of a 17 year old boy living in the suburbs, I can see the errors of my ways, but I wish not to change them. I wish to just leave.