patrickpmh

After 56 years of being an American…I don’t want to live here anymore. I gave 22 years of my life protecting our freedoms. Few people care any more.

It’s amazing how we (humans) seem to be very good at saying something and then not following through.

December 7th…it was a day “in infamousy”...almost no young people know what happened on that day in 1941. The lives lost, the families destroyed. Why should we care? They were just servicemen doing their duty…they knew there was a chance they would be killed.

Sometimes I wish that I was just like them.

I am unhappy with my life. I know there is someone out there who I am supposed to love and be with for the rest of my life. I don’t know why I seem to fall in love with people who I’m not right for.

I have found many lovers who want to spend their lives with me, but I can’t give up TOO MUCH OF MYSELF AGAIN.

I lied about who I am for so many years. I don’t even know what I want to do any more.

I understand why people will themselves to die. If I were old enough and sick enough I am sure that I could make this happen.