paul_c

Thanks for initiating this John. I will keep you posted on what I’ve done. I’m greatful for this site, and for the support and network of people on the road to self actualization. I think it’s wonderful to help people with the very basic need of survival. This benefits society as a whole.

I won’t waste time with the excuses….there’s always an excuse. I started smoking again. I’m not smoking in the car, not smoking in the house…not even while sitting on the throne in the morning. I think part of it is the fact that I still enjoy doing it, and part of it is that it’s comforting during this time of transition. No excuses though….uh, were those excuses? I’m not giving up though.

Saturday was my first full day post Master Cleanse. I felt incredible all day. I felt clear, centered, and opened. I’ve felt like I haven’t felt in a very long time….most importantly I felt.

I meditated…not sure of how long because I lost track of time. The only reference of time I had was the burning stick of nagchampa which was almost entirely gone by the time I was done.

Initially it was hard to get into the meditation. I tried to root myslef, follow my breath, open my crown chakra and my root chakra and let the energies of the universe and of my earth mother flow through me.

The meditation entered a deep state when I decided to focus on my connection to the world. I tried to get away from myself and focus on the world. I had the sensation I was one point in an interconnected web. I tried to get in touch with what was happening in the world. My mind became flooded with visions of warplanes, explosions, suffering, and distress. I tried to send out thoughts of benevolence and healing. My mantra became “God, please give us wisdom.” This really awakened me and shook me deep to my core. I began to have revalations and realized that the happenings of the world are manifestations of the battles inside all of us, but on a grand scale. Impatience, intolerance, and selfishness. I realized how important it is to maintain a calm, focused, and healthy state of mind. We are all connected, and the state of the world depends on how we manage our inner space. We create what is around us. Critical mass is real, and as the world speeds up and becomes smaller, anxiety and stress increases, causing us to forget what’s really important and causing us to stray from ourselves.

After meditating, the revalations continued. I saw the god of major religions as a sphere…for reference it was in the sky, maybe because all of the world’s major religions evolved with the concept of god coming from the sky since civilization was made possible by agriculture, which in turns requires the clearing of forrests, which in turn gives humans the opportunity to perceive the massive expanse of open sky.

God is a sphere, and the people of the world are separated by gegraphic space, only able to see one side of the sphere. Different sides of the sphere may appear different because they are perceived from a different space, and perhaps under a different light. Geographic space also causes differences in the appearance of people and further separates people through language, that evolved separately, confined by the boundaries of geographic space.

The peoples of the world are fighting for nothing. The people’s of the world are fighting for sides of the same sphere.

After meditating, I was energized, and in such a state of mind that I could not sleep very well. I had some very powerful dreams and awoke at 5:30, fully energized.