Its just that I don’t want a relationship, every single opportunity I have ever had ( and I ve had a decent number of them ) I purposely push these people away, the second I feel anything I don’t want anything romantic with them .. just being friends is good. I can sleep with this guy who I know doesn’t want a relationship with and thats the only reason I feel I can be intimate with him…
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How I did it: I had a house party, we both got drunk and i finally got to sleep with the only man i have ever wanted too.. We did it twice and it wasn't painful or anything. I am glad I waited for him even though i wasn't sure it was going to ever happen. Read how I did it…
I thought I had finally got what I wanted this past weekend when I slept with the man who I wanted to slept with for the past year. I care about him so much, we are friends thou. We haven’t talked since we had drunken sex so now I don’t know what to think, or even if we are friends anymore or even what we really were at all. Plus he has a girlfriend right now, and he cheated on her with me and another girl so far. I am not saying that I want them to break up thou, I want to see him happy, I just wish it was with me. And maybe one day it will be, I don’t want forever, just a chance for him to make me happy even thou every second I am with him I am happier than I ever imagined. I want to be his.. even a short time would be better than nothing. I guess I can only remain optimistic, and hope that maybe one day we can be together, if not I would take his friendship above anyone elses. We are the kind of friends who touch other inappropriately and make-out, and I love every second of it..<3
i have been in love with him for the last year of my life. And we have had a few opportunities but i always just ended up giving him head… now he has a gf. I am so crushed, all i ever wanted was to screw him. and now this is making it harder, i kno he is a cheater by nature, so there is still hope. And its not there is anyone else either. just him, its always him.
