pebblebaby80

The last time I was here was a very long tim ago it feels. I think the last time I was here was over two months ago and so much has happened since then. I have literally had a mental breakdown, broke off my engagement and broke up with JJ. What I was thought was my weaknesses have turned out to be strengths and what were strengths are now my weaknesses. I have been in therapy since the middle of August and am still learning how I can cope and deal with everything. I still feel very much broken but not because of the things that have happened. But because of what is happening. Everything happens for a reason and everything that I have been through is just part of the plan. There are great things in store for me I just have to believe and take one day at a time. What else can any one do but that? There is always hope and there is always light at the end of the tunel. I will see the light when the time is right.

There are a lot of days where this is still really hard for me to deal with. I absolutely hate him and I know that is a very strong word but there is no other way to describe it but… Hate. My mother told me to never use that t refer to someone but I think that is the only way that I can. Loss of progress on this one for me today

The one thing I think I am most grateful for is my sanity. Well for the most part lol