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I’m actually excersizing! I push the coffee table to the side, pop in the DVD, and get it in. I stare at the fembot, pray, and just make it through it; sweat pouring and all.

And look here: I’m a big girl. I’m going to be sopping wet (I keep a bath towel at arm’s length, so I can sop it up as I go), my heart feels like it can explode, and I feel like I might drop at any moment, but then it happens:

I transcend everything. I start thinking about how much I hate the way some of my clothes fit, I start thinking about how I felt when I was in better shape, I think about the days I didn’t feel sexy…

AND I GET PISSED.

All that anger gets me through it. Endorphins kick in and I handle it.

I’m completely spent when it’s over, but the important thing is, I get the excersize in.

After a week of consistent excersize, though, you start to feel a tingle in your muscles, rather than constant aching. You get a little proud of youself, and you feel like maybe you can get through one more workout (and so on)

You can do it.

Good luck

In a year’s time, no one has convinced me that my dream of having an all-female band can be realized.I have decided to let it go for the time being, while I put together a until with men. I’d even mix it up, but I still can’t find enough women to be that diverse.

Wish me luck.

I’ll keep you posted.

Still no liscence…a wild variety of horrifying events have taken place since then:

getting run off the road on the way to chesapeke city

being tailgated on rt.1

being pulled over for a questionable u-turn in williamsburg

being cut off countless times….

you get the idea.

But to tell the truth, I still want it. I want more independence. I want to stop feeling helpless as I have to run late by proxy, as I dangle at the mercy of whoever’s driving me to wherever.

Being a city girl,I generally don’t have to drive. But I do want the option.

Another seductive thought is PHILLY CAR SHARE – I get my liscence, then in 2 years, I’ll qualify to subscribe. Things being how they are with parkling (lack of), gas, and financial hardships, car rental definately seems the way to go.

I’ve GOT to find a way to do this!