I'm doing 35 things
I have the world’s greatest boyfriend. He loves me, treats me like a princess and wants to marry me. The problem is I can’t let go of the fact that he was married before. He married an old girlfriend who was an exchange student from japan and she was being forced to go back. The marriage ended horrible with her leaving him and cheating on him, in barely over a year. He has told me hundreds of times that he never would have married her if he hadn’t been pressured into it by her and her parents, and that it was never a real marriage. He has also said that he never wanted to grow old with her, or travel with her, or have children with her- all things that he talks about doing with me constantly. I know she’s a horrible person who used a wonderful boy to stay in the country, but I can’t seem to get over it. I feel like less than her and the idea of coming second to her makes me ill. I am very afriad that I’m slowly going to poison a perfect relationship by not being able to get over something that ended over four years ago, and has no place in our lives currently. ick. I just keep shooting myself in the foot.
piegi's Life List
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1. be happy on my own..not having to rely on someone else for happiness
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2. become a morning person.
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3. Become Financially Independent
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4. start a pharmacuticals take back program
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5. see a cure for insulin-dependent diabetes
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6. make a difference
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7. read every book I own
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8. learn to fix my car
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9. learn to sing
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10. stop judging people
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11. Get a PhD
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12. feel comfortable
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13. Live less inside my own head
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14. KEEP A HEALTHY LEVEL OF INSANITY
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15. write a book and have it published
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16. make my own clothes
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17. be a better daughter
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18. feel beautiful
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19. Worry less.
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20. stop being so hard on myself
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21. take more photographs
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22. be more honest, truely honest with myself and others
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23. get an EU passport
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24. be more spiritual
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25. stop cursing so much
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26. Send a postcard to Postsecret
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27. travel
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28. volunteer overseas
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29. learn to surf
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30. be my ideal weight
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31. Learn to let go of the past
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32. learn when to shut up
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33. know when to walk away
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34. take the GREs
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35. find out what my blood type is
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Recent entries
shooting myself in the foot.
18 months ago
oh my...
21 months ago
So I’ve fallen hard. While I’m so happy to have found someone I love, and who loves me in return, I’m so scared, I’m afraid I may not be able to do this. I’m trying really hard not to do something stupid and end it out of fear.
Finally
2 years ago
I finally got all of my banking stuff sorted out and I have been balancing my checkbook regularly. Man I spend a lot of money on crap I don’t need…I think that doing this may actually help me spend less, at least I hope it does!
