I want to give up. I really do. It hurts to wait and hope. And it hurts because we were best friends before we started dating. But for some reason, my gut just tells me that things will get better between us. I don’t even know what fully happened to make him hate me so much. We were fine and now it’s like I am the devil to him.
The weirdest things have been happening with people between us as well. I have no idea what to think or what to do. I HATE THIS!
Why oh why did I let my emotions take control and ruin our friendship? :(
pinkcilicone's Life List
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1. exercise regularly
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2. stop eating fast food and junk food
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3. Get healthy
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4. become more self-confident
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5. Be thankful for what I have rather than complain about about what I dont...
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6. get a new job
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7. get a new tattoo
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8. learn to sew
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9. sell some of my art to someone who isn't friend or family
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10. learn to oil paint
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11. smile all the time
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12. learn to knit
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13. spend less, save more
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14. list 50 things I like about me!
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15. keep in contact with old friends
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16. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
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17. make a t-shirt quilt
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18. marry the love of my life
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19. learn to tattoo
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20. backpack Europe
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21. plant a garden
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22. own all of Johnny Depp's movies
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23. meet johnny depp
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24. Get tattooed by Kat Von D.
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25. be tattooed by Chris Garver
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26. Have Criss Angel perform a magic trick for me
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27. have a child
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28. learn to swing dance
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29. kiss in the pouring rain
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30. stop buying new books until I read the ones I already own
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31. have my own library
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32. move out on my own
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33. Make a list of 100 movie quotes
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34. Take more pictures
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35. love myself
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36. get rid of my clutter
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Recent entries
I don't even know...
2 years ago
Breaking my goal:
2 years ago
I am doing good not buying any books at the moment. But I am going to break my goal when the new Harry Potter book comes out for sure. But I will read that instantly so I feel like it’s a good thing.
Amazing!
2 years ago
I have had my Yaris for a week and a day. And I have to say… AMAZING! My first tank of gas lasted a week and I got 585 kilometers on that. I am averaging 42 miles to the gallon at the moment and it’s so wonderful. It’s so fun to drive, I just want to whenever I can. Yayness!
