Birthday wishes !
I hope your day was so totally a blast, and now Im so late I can wish you a wonderful, joyous, mega blitz christmas !
Have much fun and enjoy !!
xxxxx
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reflect daily in a 'one sentence' journal
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163 people |
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Support World Aids Day
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1 person |
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Weekly, reflect on 7 things Im grateful for : )
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4 people |
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Weekly cheerbomb someone Im subscribed to, a newbie and anyone else I like to cheer !
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1 person |
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Post random UPs, random DOWNs & random INBETWEEN's *
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1 person |
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notice things that are already good
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4 people |
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Beat my depression
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1,647 people |
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Make my own Christmas gifts
2 entries . 64 cheers |
22 people |
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make my own christmas cards
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88 people |
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Continue to share my love of child-like joys : )
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1 person |
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Coven
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3 people |
| 13. |
disclose 43 random THINGS about myself
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72 people |
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Practice random acts of kindness
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756 people |
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be more assertive.
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640 people |
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visit my friends
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Re-design my garden & buy a gate !
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1 person |
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Let go of negative memories.
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5 people |
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Grow old gracefully & disgracefully in equal'ish' measure..
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1 person |
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Start a Buddy Check 12 team here on 43things, in support of Breast Cancer Awareness. Do your self-exam the 12th of every month.
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171 people |
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learn to type
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Identify and Rid Myself of 43 Items of Überclutter
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23 people |
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Remember that well-behaved women rarely make history.
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7 people |
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Post 43 of my favorite works of art
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Take photos of 43 strangers
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Post 43 dolls in my collection.
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1 person |
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Take 43 photos of Washing Lines !
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1 person |
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sell things on etsy
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146 people |
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live by the sea
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511 people |
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Convene
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1 person |
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Start a website
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210 people |
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see the northern lights
1 entry . 44 cheers |
16,412 people |
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revamp my goals for 2009
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6 people |
| 34. |
Wish everyone a wonderful 'sparkle-filled'holiday time.
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1 person |
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Birthday wishes !
I hope your day was so totally a blast, and now Im so late I can wish you a wonderful, joyous, mega blitz christmas !
Have much fun and enjoy !!
xxxxx
Its Christmas eve my favorite day of the whole year…..whilst I have not been around much I have thought of you all so very often.
And so I send this eve so much sparkle and love out to you all my dear friends, may your days be filled with love, light and laughter !
May you be be celebrating or not, take a quick moment to recognise the beauty you radiate, and the joy that is around however small. I am filled with gratitude for the friendships here and thank each one for the light and love. May your world be filled with with all that can nourish you and may this holiday bring enjoyment and quality time with loved ones.
Happy Festivities….....and from my small world to yours I send you much love.
Paula
x
Im so sorry….
I hate myself for not being brave enough or adult enough to
keep up with you all but it felt just so hard and I hate now that
I have come on and had caused some concern. I feel selfish and pathetic.
I don’t deserve such thoughts.
Im finding myself in a low dark place that has come with such pace and mean-ness that Ive been at aloss how to just be.
I can not say why it has decended, I am still in it trying to work it out. For me it has come so forcefully that its left me questioning so much. I must be so weak to let this happen at the speed and strenghth it has.
I hate myself for this.
I hate the weakness and the self indulgence.
It only fuels self loathing and my anger with myself.
I know its an illness, but the cruelness seems so personal.
I know I will get through this…....I have before.
Only this time it feels so much more mocking as I felt I had made some progress and enjoying the balance I had worked at.
I now know I hav’nt worked enough.
I feel foolish.
I want to truely thankyou all for your loving thoughts and support,
I wept just reading them tonight.
Tears for myself but much more in gratitude of love.
I think, know, you are such wonderful friends.
I hope to thank you all personally but at the moment Im still teary and feeling so small.
(((((hugs)))) to you all
Love
Paula
x