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“You can’t live the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one.”
A friend of mine told me this and everything just kind of made sense. I keep expecting to move on with my life and meet someone new and to be happy and for everything to fall into place. But how is that going to happen if I keep thinking about what I used to have and what I missed out on? I can’t move on if I keep thinking about these things when I’m falling asleep. I go to sleep thinking of him, I dream of him and I wake up half expecting him to be there, sleeping next to me. But I’m done with that. So tonight I’m going to go to sleep thinking of the future. Without him.

This is actually going okay so far! I got a B and 2 C’s in my AS levels, and I know I could have done a lot better, but this year I’ve got everything under control(ish) and I really think I can do this and get into uni.

I’m really not sure if I should give up on this or not? I really love driving, but i have a minor weakness. The second I’m behind the wheel I seem to think I’m Vin Diesel in Fast and the Furious… Which would be great if I could actually drive well, but I drive on the wrong side of the road, I drive through roundabouts, I don’t know my left from right, I forget to brake and worst of all, I tend to drive far too fast towards pedestrians as opposed to away from them. Not intentionally. I’m just such a terrible driver.