I'm doing 42 things
Today marks 3 weeks… it’s still gradually getting easier, though the cravings pop up once in awhile. The Nicorette gum is working out great. I came the closest to a setback today than ever.
I was cleaning out my truck and was tossing some “empty” cigaretted boxes, when I noticed something jiggling around in one of them. Opened it up and saw two beautiful Marlboros gazing longingly up at me. Or was I gazing longingly down at them? Either way, I spent the next ten minutes arguing with myself about smoking at least one of them. “It’s only one, and I’ve done so well! Reward yourself!” “Yeah, that’s like rewarding yourself for not being in an auto accident by playing in traffic.” “Who’s gonna know?” “I’ll know.” “But it feels SOOOO GOOOOOOD!” And this is where my schizoid conversation paused. I started thinking… “Is it really so good? Why is it so good?” And I just couldn’t put my finger on why I got enjoyment out of smoking. It occurred to me that the relief I get from smoking was due to the craving I had courtesy of the addiction. That was it. I don’t feel better after smoking. I just don’t feel withdrawals anymore. Anyway, I got pissed off and threw the cigarettes away. Screw you Marlboro! I’m gonna do it this time.
pjlewis66's Life List
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1. learn photography
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2. write a novel
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3. Travel across America in a camper van
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4. Visit Japan again
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5. Visit Australia
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6. learn to play bass
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7. Quit Smoking
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8. find a new job
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9. be healthier
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10. Go to Ireland
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11. Go to England
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12. Become Financially Independent
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13. Quit my job
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14. visit every state in the U.S.
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15. decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life
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16. watch the IMDB.com Top 100 movies
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17. learn spanish
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18. start writing again
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19. die with my boots on
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20. Learn to play the drums
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21. Alphabetize my cd collection
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22. Get a digital SLR camera
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23. Lose 10 pounds
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24. Have 43 Things on my "has done" list
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25. read the top 100 sci-fi novels
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26. have a secret identity
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27. join a secret society
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28. find out how 43people.com could be useful besides being a tribute site to my subscribers and celebs
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29. discover more good music using last.fm
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30. Learn the Chapman Stick
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31. dream lucidly
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32. lower my cholesterol
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33. have my own business
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34. win the lottery
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35. like myself
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36. Have my 15 minutes of fame
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37. try geocaching
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38. Act in a play
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39. love my job
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40. post to my blog every day for 1 month
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41. learn html
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42. stand up comedy
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I’ve decided to go the extra mile with this “healthy” thing. Sure, quitting smoking will help tremendously, and eating low fat stuff hasn’t been hard at all. I still think I’m gaining weight though. Probably because I quit smoking. Can you get fat on a box of Triscuits? Anyhoo… I’ve decide to take a more methodical approach to getting/living healthy. When I get my check-up next month, for my cholesterol, I’ll ask about what kind of physical exercise I am allowed to do. My cardiologist didn’t mention any restrictions, since it was just a tachycardia… So I should be able to do some cardio type exercises. Sigh… guess I’ll have to research it. A major drag, since I’m chronically lazy…
I tried it out to see what all the fuss was about. The tabbing feature is cool, but can be done in IE with the right add-on. The best thing about Firefox is that I haven’t had nearly the same problems with crashing that I had with IE. In fact, I can’t remember it EVER crashing.
