I'm doing 32 things
I'm done
2 months ago
I fell in love with my life instead.
placid_sunshine's Life List
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1. Learn to play the guitar
1 cheer12,658 people -
2. write a song
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3. Visit Arthur Rimbaud's grave
1 cheer2 people -
4. Own a cat
1 entry284 people -
5. learn to play the accordion
1 entry246 people -
6. revamp my wardrobe
1 entry241 people -
7. go to Hogwarts
1 entry . 1 cheer101 people -
8. visit Green Gables
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9. read all of Jack Kerouac's books.
1 cheer25 people -
10. be somebody's Lolita
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11. have a lucid dream
1 entry232 people -
12. leave little messages, quotations,pieces of art etc. for strangers to find
178 people -
13. read all the books I own
1,137 people -
14. feel beautiful
2,058 people -
15. go camping this summer
94 people -
16. see a volcano
110 people -
17. do theatre again
7 people -
18. See Paul McCartney in concert
51 people -
19. weigh 110 pounds
210 people -
20. Fall in love
3 entries . 1 cheer24,435 people -
21. be a vagabond
2 cheers47 people -
22. Ride a train
1 cheer145 people -
23. hop trains
2 cheers84 people -
24. live in a forest
2 cheers53 people -
25. learn how to do a cartwheel
1 cheer200 people -
26. Speak French fluently
1 entry2,098 people -
27. live by the sea
1 entry . 1 cheer521 people -
28. help people
1,355 people -
29. Go to Paris
1 entry1,861 people -
30. write a novel
9,673 people -
31. stop procastinating
407 people -
32. go skinny dipping
3,072 people
Recent entries
This is the hardest thing I've ever done
3 months ago
because I refuse to do it. I think about him a million times a day and I don’t even try to stop. I keep waiting for him, even when I’m living and having a lovely time without him I’m still waiting. And when he comes crawling back I let the little blood-sucker fall back into my arms. And I kiss him and hold him and love him while my dignity crumbles. He has this power over me… and I allow it. I know I deserve much, much, much better but… I can’t explain it: he is simply my weakness. He is so beautiful and artistic… even after I discovered he was just another teenage hornbag I still look at him with the same starry eyes I did at the very beginning, when he was the sweetest and loveliest boy I ever met. I keep foolishly believing that I will magically get over him once I start college in the fall.
I’ve never wanted anybody so badly in my entire life.
Hey you
4 months ago
You should seriously stop making promises that you’ll break and inflating me with false hopes. Please stay or leave forever. Instead, you lead me in circles, disappearing every so often and then come crawling back to me with your kisses and smiles. I hate that you are so damned cute. But there’s something deep and intangible about you that makes all the bullshit you’ve been giving me for the past ten months worth it. There’s something in you that makes me hold on. I love you, and that is so depressing. I think about you everyday. Everything reminds me of us and I can’t take it anymore. Somebody please make this stop because I’m literally and physically breaking apart.
