planet45

It is about motivating myself really, to move, do something, shake things up inside and just do it.

The hardest thing I face is knowing I can do somethings, perhaps even do them very well and not motivating myself into doing something about them. I know that I have fallen into the deep pit of procrastination and I can see that I will suffer greatly if I do not do something positive into moving myself up this steep mountain I dug myself into.

I think I felt very comfortable the last couple of years having had a couple of good years before and not paid much attention to the danger that can arise from just doing nothing. I got deeper into a depressive mode that is apparent from my inactivity, my weight gain, smoking habit et …

the thing is, I know better and frankly as I heard before, we do more out of frustration than when we are in a comfort zone. Well I am frustrated with doing nothing. I am frustrated with knowing I can do some things so well and not doing anything about them. I am frustrated with seeing others move forward while I am stagnating if not moving backward.

I am going to do something about it: wake up!

I know I can do this! I have done it previously. Just in the last year, I stopped for about eight months and then one day decide to smoke again. I previously had stopped for a couple of years and reverted back again etc… Right now I am thinking about it again, but I won’t until I get my weight problem and dieting under way. Lets just face it, you can’t do 43 things at the same time and a sure way to fail at something is to try and do too many things at the same time. I know this from experience, but have I learned anything from it ? My goal is to start “my kicking the smoking habit” within the next two months when I start gaining control of my weight and have some type of exercise regimen in place, and then I would take this gradually.

I am so frustrated with my weight. I am now at 115kg which is about 252 pounds. I’d like to go down to 180 pounds and as of two days ago I have made the decision to do so!

Yesterday was the first day of my new diet. I am basically drinking a bunch of water and trying to move more (a lazy way of doing exercise). I drank about 2 liters of water by the end of the day and moved for about .. lets just not go there, but I did more :) I also had exactly threee meals only during the day and they were a lot more sensible than usual.

Today Sunday, I am still sticking with my water, sensible meals? and perhaps moving (so far it only means not taking the elevator). I did weigh myself at 10AM , same as yesterday, and I was around 112.5 KG. I don’t buy too much into the weight my scale shows though, as my weight does fluctuate during different periods of the day etc.. plus I do believe that I would only be able to see real accurate results by tracking this over a long period of time.

See you soon.