its been a year and i guess the festive season makes people get more emotional and brings back more memories. 3 years long distance, been throu hell, thought love conquer it all,thought he was the one, but it came to an end.Move 5000miles, to a totally strange country to be with him but just didnt work. Went throu depression and insomnia for half a year, cant sleep without the pills. Came out of it, and went thru phases of going out partying every weekend, drunk, ended crying worst than ever and feeling blue than ever.
I realised this gotta stop. I need to gain back my confidence, and figured all the wrongs I did in the relationship and improve myself to a better person for my next partner. I’m still working on it. But there are always this emptiness in me and the fear of not able to find such love or someone again my life. I know I need to get rid of this negativity.