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Quit having miscarriages! (read all 2 entries…)
Baby # 3 died at 3 1/2 months 3 years ago

I was pregnant yet again straight after the last m/c with baby number 3.I got to 3 1/2 months and baby died today. We found out at the doctor’s for a routine check up. I am seriously so tired from dealing with this same sort of trauma to my soul, that I am not even sure I want to put myself through this potential pain ever again.

Sep 15, 2006, 10:02PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments


Quit having miscarriages! (read all 2 entries…)
I feel empty inside... 3 years ago

Last night was miscarriage #2 and the terrible thing is I thought….with all my being I thought this was it. I thought this baby would come through. We told everyone just a couple weeks ago. We thought we were in the safe. We weren’t. They were all so happy. Now we have to tell them the sad news. i will feel the pain over and over. I even started a baby journal for him. I feel so alone inside now. Today was a day at the hospital with lots of blood work and tests. I feel so fatigued now, but I can’t sleep. I’m hollow now. He’s gone away and I didn’t even get to kiss his little face…I know I can be a good mommy. Just let me try. If my body would stop rejecting these precious babies,only then would I get the chance.

Jun 13, 2006, 10:38PM PDT | 1 cheer | 3 comments


Work on controlling my PMS haha
About a week every month!!! 3 years ago

I’m fine all the other weeks…just that one right before my period, I get super emotional..like over the littlest most retarded things. I am so snappy..My poor hubby is great… He trys so hard..but I am the Bitch of the universe. I need to remember that it is not his fault and show love for him more in that week not yell at him or even cry so much. I hate crying anyways.

Jan 27, 2006, 01:13PM PST | 1 cheer | 0 comments


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