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  2. 1. go bungee jumping
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  3. 2. save the world
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  4. 3. travel the silk road
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  5. 4. live in london
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  6. 5. sleep under the stars
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  7. 6. Go for a midnight picnic
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  8. 7. Work on a political campaign
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  9. 8. Read all the books in my "must read" pile
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  10. 9. become better at small-talk
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  11. 10. To live instead of exist
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  12. 11. Send a message in a bottle
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  13. 12. travel on the Trans-Siberian Railway
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  14. 13. permanently remove 'like' from my vocabulary
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  15. 14. be financially independent
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  16. 15. someday have a house with a pillow room
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  17. 16. change someone's life
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  18. 17. eat healthy
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  19. 18. Learn to cook
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  20. 19. sail around the world
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  21. 20. be unforgettable
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  22. 21. learn how to drive stick-shift
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  23. 22. road trip
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  24. 23. go to a Karaoke bar
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  25. 24. fall in love again
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  26. 25. go to the zoo
    		178 people
  27. 26. get a job
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Fall in real love: ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without each other love. (read all 2 entries…)
Untitled 2 years ago

I don’t know how long ago it was that I dreamed of falling in this ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can’t live without each other love. I guess I thought it would be romantic and noble to hurt so much when we’d be apart or something. And then a couple of months ago I gave up on this goal because I didn’t want to tie myself down by these traditional definitions about “real” love.

And now I’ve done it. I’ve fallen in real ridiculous inconveneint consuing can’t live without each other love.

Without asking for it this time. Without wanting it.

I guess that technically I’m living. We are an ocean and several countries apart. And I’m alive.

But only in the strictest of senses. Yes I am breathing. Yes I can still laugh. I can still feel. But every moment that I am enjoying something else, it is only half enjoyment because I am thinking about him.

And sometimes it hurts, it actually physically hurts somewhere deep inside of me, that he is not here.

Jun 11, 2007, 07:58AM PDT | 3 cheers | 0 comments


Fall in real love: ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without each other love. (read all 2 entries…)
Untitled 2 years ago

The funny thing about me giving up on this goal is that I have this amazing man in my life right now that I love and that is very much in love with me. This man whom, when I think of him, makes me smile. Who I can spend hours talking to. Who has, quite seriously, changed my life. Who I want to be with.

But can I live without him? It would hurt a lot for a very long time, but I’d get over it. And what is real love anyway? I don’t know if I even believe in it..

But I’ve been trying to come to terms with my own definition of love, and I think that for me at least, these traditional definitions of love just don’t work for me.

Feb 15, 2007, 02:11AM PST | 1 cheer | 0 comments


fall in love with someone who loves me too
Untitled 2 years ago

I’ve gotten the “someone who loves me too” part down. Now I just have to figure out if what I feel is love or not.

How do you know? Ever?

Maybe it’s enough that I’m happy with him, that I’m willing to take a chance, to give up other flings and relationships and lo que sea to be with him.

Maybe that’s enough?

Jan 31, 2007, 04:07AM PST | 1 cheer | 0 comments


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tone up my body get well Duckie wants to compile a list of 100 facts about myself be happy with my body backpack around Europe Learn how to grind dance for free and fast. grow tomatoes be a part of history hacking email password get a job create the soundtrack to my life build community in my immediate seattle central district neighborhood move out of florida improve my grammer get out of debt Become a better public speaker get some sleep learn how to prepare 10 excellent meals have an affair see my family more often J L wants to get rid of the dark circles under my eyes stick to a budget learn german ~lg! wants to track my WW food points on a daily basis begin my new work at home business tomorrow!! create my own tattoo Be myself Make a quilt
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