ptymlt

i guess it is because i am so self-aware; i know my weaknesses so well, that i avoid things that trigger them. i am VERY good at justification. i hope that simply by writing this down where people can see it, i will embarrass myself out of stopping myself. i know i have the skills, i know i have the spark. i guess i just have too much of the wisdom and have lost too much of the innocence/ignorance…. blind faith isn’t doing it for me lately. i see things coming down the road and i predict the outcome before i even take the first step. well, i really need to stop that.

i have been here two years, haven’t made friends, miss wearing my club clothes, miss “living in the movie,” miss the few, very good friends i do have back in la.

i have wanted a motorcycle since 1987. i finally got one by a fluke, and now i am getting ready to take my exam. and i will be very disappointed in myself if after i get the license, i don’t take full advantage of having a motorcycle….