pulsusego

i feel horribly guilty sometimes because it feels like my “problems” aren’t actualyserious. i’ve heard so many things about other peoples problems, they seem so much more.. serious. i don’t cut too deep. i don’t starve myself to the bone. i don’t drink myself out. i’m not as… troubled as some others.

so i can’t realy tell anyone very many.. details, about all of this. i can’t show anybody what i realy feel.

and also when i make someone mad, or sad, or worried, or anything. i hate doing that. it makes you so guilty, which makes me sad, which makes me mad, which makes me feel the worst. and this worries people, which makes me feel worse.

my friend got me to stop from cutting three nights ago and even to break and throw away the razor. with any hope i won’t be finding another one.

i hope everyone with this “goal” is able to do it. :)
i hate cutting.

i used to starve myself but one of my friends got me to stop. now i eat okay, just not well.

i’m trying to start eating normaly so i can be, well, normal i guess. healthy, maybe? idk