pumpkinator

i was in a relationship for 2 and 1/2 years. the man i was with proposed. everything was going fine until we started having problems. i’m a virgin and he was not. he always pushed the issue and it caused us a whole bunch of fights. other than that, though, he was my best friend and, after all, i was saving myself for him. well, we got into a fight and broke up. within a day he had made out with another girl and within a week had sex with someone we both know. i just can’t believe this. i honestly wanted to give my whole life to him. i gave up everything…everything. i thought that we were working together and building our life. i thought a lot of things that were not true. now i don’t know how to move on. i put everything into him and now i don’t really have many friends. this is absolutely terrible. i’m trying to be graceful, classy, and happy, but i feel like, once everyone stops looking, i break down…hopelessly unable to come to grips with how you can love someone and think they love you back when, in reality, they could break your heart in a second. now hes asking for one more chance. i know i should be able to forgive him, but i am wondering if i can. it seems like all we do is fight because i just feel aweful whenever i’m around him. what should i do?

its all about the motivation. for anyone thats struggling fitting this into their schedule (as i once did), the best advice i have is to go early in the morning before you are supposed to be up. i go swimming every day at 6:30 in the morning before my class. i only swim for about 20 minutes, but its a great way to jump start my day and my metabolism. good luck everyone!

thats been my goal since i was little! this is probably one of the best goals on here! i almost made it this year, in fact, i missed it by a couple of days. i visited new york to study architecture this past november…what a disappointing realization to be that close…maybe next time!