BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!
Best wishes to my favourite kitty (dont tell Sadie she will be so jealous) Wishing you the very best and mosy wonderfut birthday full of tuna and adoration. May you have a wonderful year ahead filled with sublime music, thrilling literature, fresh tuna, excessive catnip and mad debaucherous fun.
But I hope you enjoyed a fabulous birthday full love, joy and fun. Wishing you a great year ahead,may you achieve all your goals!
Was diagnosed with polycysic ovarian syndrome this week, after blood tests and ultrasounds. It was found that I have insulin resistance, with 5 times normal fasting insulin levels, which has caused a bit of liver damage and affected my hormones a lot. I had suspected it a little, but its kind of strange to have it comfirmed. I am afraid it will affect my ability to fall pregnant and I feel a little overwhelmed at the mess my body seems to be in. I want to approach this systematically but between starting on prescribed meds (metformin, provera, cyclocapron) being advised on new eating plans and excercise regimes as well as trying to fit in what I know about a suitable supplement and homoeopathic treatment I am still getting to grips with it. I have decided to take metformin as directed for a few months at least as I need to control my insulin levels. The other meds are short term to get my hormonal cycle back into gear but I dont want to take much else besides metformin after the first month. Then it will be supplements, diet and excercise together with the gradually increased dose of metformin I have been prescribed. I am not going to panic about fertility (although I suspect this will be hard) I am going to take it one step at a time.
1. So Far Away
2. Any Colour You Like
3. Signed, Sealed, Delivered
4. Blowin’ in the Wind
5. Come Fly With Me
6. Big Empty
7. One Piece at a Time
8. Down on the Corner
9. The One That I Want
10. Firestarter
11. Sophisticated Lady
12. Go Your Own Way
13. Happy Birthday
14. Hide and Seek
15. Ice Ice Baby
16. Welcome to:
17. It’s Martini Time
18. Just a Girl
19. Boys of Summer
20. What I Got
21. Dance to the Music
22. Pretty Woman
23. Thirty-Three
24. Summertime Blues
25. Monochrome
26. My Best Friend
27. On The Outside
28. Opposites Attract
29. Under Pressure
30. Ready to Go
31. Wish You Were Here
32. Ball and Chain
33. We Built This City
34. Scattered
35. Blinded by the Light
36. Everyday People
37. For No One
38. Somebody to Love
39. Turn, Turn, Turn
40. Wake Up
41. In Bloom
42. I Want Candy
43. Young At Heart
We have been planning for months!
And it is finally here, we are leaving tomorrow morning, I am soo excited. 3 days away:)
Work stress has really been getting to me and this mini holiday is excactly what I need.
I have been once before, for a confrence on homoeopathy, and it was beautiful. This time I am glad to be going purely for leisure and to be sharing this with husband.
8. Eat pizza in front of someone else
28. I touched a turtle!!!! It was interestintg. When I saw the turtle I remembered it being on this dare and asked if I could touch it and the guy said sure, and I did.
I have a lot of work to do…
even though I had decided to do this right at the beggining of the month. Have done a couple of these already though.
The full list:
1. Write a note on the toilet paper of public restroom.
2. Say “Only 1 person has died in this elevator”.
3. Say “You are pretty for a McDonald employee”.
4. Punch a police officer.
5. Buy a lottery ticket.
6. Buy something with only pennies (or your country’s smallest coin).
7. Ask someone if they are a model.
8. Eat pizza in front of someone else.
9. Read poetry aloud in public.
10. Draw a chalk flower in a cemetery.
11. Eat a jar of baby food.
12. sleep naked.
13. Wear 2 pairs of underwear all day.
14. Ask a stranger with a tattoo if he likes ballet.
15. Post a question regarding sex.
16. Answer someones dirty question.
17. Wear 2 watches and ask someone for the time.
18. Leave a silly note on a stranger’s car.
19. Eat a spoonful of instant coffee.
20. Read Gone With the Wind.
21. Watch the movie Gigli.
22. Order a Big Mac at any restaurant other than McDonald’s.
23. Comment on a post for the ‘Stop Masterbating’ goal (sic).
24. Eat a dessert made with bacon.
25. Ride a roller coaster.
26. Dance in public.
27. Dye your hair.
28. Touch a snake, frog or turtle.
29. Eat one potato chip.
30. Toss an egg a meter (or yard) in the air and catch it.
31. Hula hoop.
32. Hold an ice cube until it melts. Do NOT add salt.
33. Eat a grape at a grocery store.
34. Sing outside.
35. Watch a horror movie.
36. Add a Menthos to a Diet coke (it causes a reaction and sprays be cautious).
37. Change your Avatar to Roseanne Barr for 2 days.
38. Get a Brazilian or a trim.
39. Buy and wear something from a used clothing store.
40. Leave a note in a library book.
41. Keep your right blinker on for a minute.
42. Water a plant in the rain.
43. Find your flashlight while blindfolded
Tomorrow is my 27th birthday. I have been complaining in a half joking way that I feel old. But honestly i dont feel close to 30 and I dont feel old, or young. I feel very reflective, but I think I need to spit out all these thoughts so they stop crowding around in my head and I can just enjoy the day tomorrow as I usually do.
I feel guilty for not really wanting children yet and also relieved I dont have any and mixed in with that I feel worried that I am somehow defficient as I dont feel very maternal toward any children I do come accross. Its like I had the broodiness for awhile about a year ago and it just dissapeared. I have always had a fear that one day when I do want children I will have trouble conceiving. And I fear I wont be a good mother, that having children will frustrate me somehow. I strongly suspect this is to do with my own mother and all the issues she had as we grew up. So even though husband is not putting any pressure on me I cant be comfortable with my descision to wait on the kids thing, I turn it over and over in my own mind, wondering if Im wrong to feel this way. Whenever I see people with kids they are struggling with the whining and the demands and the crying etc and all I feel is, thank god its not me. I like my sleep and independance, I like being a little selfish. I should just be happy and enjoy my life then- but my stupid brain keeps telling me I should want something else.
I am truly grateful that we have some more financial stability thanks to my new job. Whatever faults it may have it pays well. Again with the guilt-I feel guilty that I get paid more than husband and that he works much harder than me. I cant help the fact that I grew up with the idea that the mans role in a marriage is to be the main provider and it makes me a little uncomfortable to be the one earning more. I know it makes him a little uncomfortable too. We just have to get past it I guess. In other aspects of our relationship we have really become stonger and closer so, although it is a niggle, I dont think this will be a major issue we cant resolve. We both just need to get over it and be grateful and happy that we have enough.
I dont know where Im headed in this career. I had always expected I would have my own practice and just be a homeopath. Now that I am working at a corporate I am both excited by the new challenges and also shocked at how differently my career is taking shape. I am surprisingly well adapted to the corporate environment. I discovered some ambition I had no idea I ever had in me. Now I have to re assess where I want to go in life career wise. I will always practice homeopathy, I am setting up a non profit clinic to run in my spare time, but in terms of earning this is a whole new direction. I have to admit I find it exciting.
Weight issues have been much less impotant to me, I dnt feel like I even have time to think about weight too much. And surprisingly I seem to be losing weight anyway.
Health issues are one thing I need to look at from next month. I am guitly of having put of getting some serious hormonal issues seen to because I have been waiting for my medical aid cover to become active. I will sort it all out after august
wow, I feel lighter having gotten all this out of my brain:)
Onward! to the birthday cake and presents tomorrow…
I have a hypothetical friend (who may or may not be an Emu) who recently (rashly) offered to give feckless and unreliable advice to people.
Trouble is, I suspect she is off getting drunk under a table with a goat istead of manning her post, and meanwhile the desperate advice seekers are lining up.
What should I do?
Or is she a lost cause?
Its been awhile since I have made any new friends. I was never very good at it even at school and University where it is easier to find friends. As an adult I feel a bit clueless. Im just a socially awkward dork.
So there is a girl I would like to be friends with, she is the girlfriend of one of husbands friends, but I dont know how to take it from the level of hanging out when we are all meeting in a group to the level of being able to just go out for coffee or to the movies. We get along well when we chat. I think she is quite shy too though.
How do I make friends with her? Any suggestions?
How do you make new friends as an adult?
In a fit of drunken camaraderie and confidence I showed someone some poetry I have written.
Now I feel like I accidentally posted a naked picture of myself on facebook – vulnerable and uneasy and I cant believe I would do that.
She is a nice person.
Should I just get over myself? Or is there anything else you can suggest?
Also, to add to my woes,I forgot to take a picture of the drunken moment for the scavenger hunt:(
Physically.
I am still carrying around so much extra weight and it makes me feel (ironically) less than others somehow.
I feel judged by people. I know that to some extent it is in my mind, but some of it isnt. I have had people comment to me that I should lose weight.
I want to lose weight. This has been an ongoing problem for the past 3 or 4 years, especially the past 2 years I’ve been married.
I know that husband loves me no matter what, but I have recently realised that that does not change the fact that my having a nice figure would be nicer for him. He would never say it, and I love him for not judging me. But the fact is that I look better and am more attractive when I am not so very overweight.
How to be content with myself and not lose sight of my weight goal?
I seem to swing between two extremes on not caring what I weigh and eating anything I want and then at other times hating my body. I need some balance but it is so hard for me not to go to extremes
I dont feel normal sized. I am so overweight and it bothers me, yet I am not losing weight. I can not even say that I struggle to lose weight on a diet or exercise program because I simply havnt stuck to one. Why, what is wrong with me? I feel tired all the time and very unmotivated to exercise. All I want to do is sit or lie on the couch and stuff my face with carbs. And then I feel worse for being so huge. I have got to find a solution. My problem is that I seem to lack any self discipline if I crave for a carb fix and I feel miserable at the thought of restricting my diet. Food is way too important and one of my primary sources of pleasure and comfort. I need to break the pattern. I honestly feel this is a real addiction for me.
I looked at some pics of me a few years ago and I cant believe how different I look now.
