purplechameleon

is in a painful emotional renovation



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Lose 20 pounds
Feel Good

It is more important to feel healthy and strong in my body than to lose 20 pounds. I started going to yoga again so I am going to work hard at that and be result oriented instead of focused on what the scale says. Yoga and jogging naturally regulates my appetite and sleep.



learn french
I get it!

The past few weeks I’ve been making an effort in public to use French when the opportunity arises. I know more than I thought I just need to practice.



keep a one sentence journal (read all 54 entries…)
Today I put my CBT therapy

into action by exercising to help my anxiety and depression symptoms.



be more active (read all 18 entries…)
Injuries and activity

I had a really painful ingrown toenail last winter and it was too painful for me to run or do yoga. I have the problem temporarily dealt with so I am going to take advantage of the time I can exercise without pain. I miss the natural high and lightness I get from running and doing yoga.



be more active (read all 18 entries…)
Finally exercised

Went to hot yoga today. I have 8 weeks of free membership to use up so here I go!



quit drinking soda (read all 2 entries…)
Less is more

No soda today! I had tea with my breakfast and water at my yoga class. After yoga all I wanted was water.



Do things that intimidate me (read all 28 entries…)
Applying to a competitive employer

I applied for a job with an extremely competitive employer (I am not generally competitive). I kept applying for positions that I was qualified for and two years and four interviews later I was finally offered a position at my dream job. I dressed the part and improved my resume each time I applied. Persistence pays off.



Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful. (read all 138 entries…)
Gratefuls:

1. Getting a job today
2. Buying myself new clothes for my new job
3. Replacing my broken cutting board for the kitchen
4. Treating myself to Starbucks
5. Taking it easy today



get a job (read all 10 entries…)
Job Getting

Have had a few promising interviews but am still waiting for an answer from two possibilities. I am prepared to get two, one or no offers. If it doesn’t work out it just means there is something better out there for me :)

Being off work for almost two years and having a multitude of health problems has made going back to work a very stressful process but I am ready now. Yay me!



get a job (read all 10 entries…)
Nailed it yesterday

I had a job interview yesterday and felt that I was able to be myself and was minimally nervous.



get a job (read all 10 entries…)
Believing in in myself

So I had a job interview on Thursday and I was really nervous. Oddly enough afterwards I gave myself permission to be nervous because it was a big deal and a job I really wanted.

I’ve gotta spend less time beating myself up and more time cheering for myself. I realize that when I focus on what I did wrong in my interview I can’t see all of the areas I did well in.

If I get this job they will not regret hiring me.



get a job (read all 10 entries…)
Getting there

I had an interview today. Another one Tuesday.

I’ve got to start cheering for myself more. It’s so easy to beat myself up over not doing everything perfectly.



quit drinking soda (read all 2 entries…)
Stress and diet

I used to be a workaholic and for years I was working myself into my grave because I took on way too much. I did it to cope with some uncomfortable experiences that I’d not dealt with and eventually they caught up with me. I’ve been off work for a year and a half and have been doing therapy to learn how to do basic things like eat and sleep on a schedule. It sounds simple but my upbringing was very chaotic so I never had role models to help me establish healthy habits.

One of the things that has suffered for the last year or so is my diet. I’ve been drinking soda way more often than I should, I’ve used it for comfort as I took up drinking soda around the time I quit smoking. Even if I could get down to one glass per day then wean myself I’d be happy.

I bought a really nice juicer and the tap water in the city is really great so that could help me. I will be going back to work soon and I want to go back healthy and feeling good about myself. I’ve gained some weight since I’ve slowed down my workaholic pace so I’d like to make better life choices to avoid gaining any more. I am borderline overweight and I would like to work towards losing some of the 20ish pounds I’ve gained since being off work.



keep a one sentence journal (read all 54 entries…)
When you fall down

get back up again.



Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful. (read all 138 entries…)
Todays Gratefuls:

1. Getting out of my house
2. Asking for help
3. Getting healthy groceries
4. Keeping my head up today when I’ve been struggling with depression for the past several weeks
5. Planning more activities to keep my depression at bay



Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful. (read all 138 entries…)
Gratefuls:

1. Having people that care about me
2. Access to free health care
3. My juicer
4. Setting better limits for myself
5. Meeting with a financial adviser today to talk about my debt repayment options



get out of debt (read all 20 entries…)
Debt Reduction

Checked out the option of debt consolidation today. At least found somewhere to start. I don’t have any collateral like a house or vehicle and even if I did the interest rate the bank would give me might be higher than my loan interest.



get a job (read all 10 entries…)
Almost there :S

Might have a job, will see what happens. It’s really stressing me out having to wait. I really want this job.



get a job (read all 10 entries…)
Getting there

I lost my job about a year ago due to a mass layoff and around the same time had health problems that prevented me from working. I am preparing to go back to work.

I am making myself an inexpensive outfit that I can wear to potential interviews which consists of black dress pants, white blouse and a single button blazer. I really want to be working again and I feel that by putting an effort into my appearance I will have more appeal to potential employers.



get a job (read all 10 entries…)
Actively looking

I’ve been actively looking for a job over the past few months and have narrowed my search specifically to a few companies that I know I’d stick with for a long time.

I am done selling myself short for jobs I end up hating after a few months. I am way better than minimum wage.



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