purplefairy12

As much as I say every time “Right I’m going to get my life back on track” it NEVER seems to work. Ever. I ALWAYS end up in the kitchen stuffing my face. I’ve put on 5lbs since coming to back to Uni and although I suppose it doesn’t really matter and nobody will probably notice it aside from me i feel SO fat and SO heavy it is ridiculous.

ONE DAY. argh, I wonder why it is so hard?

Oh god I don’t think I shall ever be able to stop. I like it too much! But I don’t like cancerous tumours. Therefore whenever I want a cigarette I will type “Hideous Picture of Tumours” into google imagesearch.

I don’t even think smoking gives you tumours does it? Perhaps it does. Oh of course it does, lung cancer and all that. Wow I’m so informed it blows my mind.

Well, wonderfully it’s got worse. I don’t understand it at all, and I don’t feel like I’ll ever be okay again. I won’t give up but I can’t ever see me hitting the “I’ve done this” button unless of course I become one of those compulsive liars/people with nervous twitches that hit ‘I’ve done this’ buttons when they haven’t actually done anything let alone “this”.

I am making light of it but it’s honestly very very shit. So there. Kudos to all you people who’ve managed it. I envy you so much.