wanting is so hard. I was set an exerise to go through magazines and make a little scrapbook of how I wanted my life to be. I couldn’t find anything I wanted – it all looked like crap. I wasn’t drawn to any of the things, places, events or people. I didn’t like any of the cars or buildings or gadgets. The most positive images I found were forests, oceans and deserts, but even with those I wasn’t that inspired – they were just places to avoid all the things and people.
refreezer's Life List
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1. destroy all my web identities, including this one
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2. list 5 things I like about everyone I know
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3. work without aircon noise
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4. work well and consistently
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5. treat people and things that are important to me well
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6. stop sabotaging myself
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7. stop sabotaging relationships
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8. Spend less time fooling around on the net and more time actually working
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9. decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life
2 entries . 2 cheers6,987 people -
10. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
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11. read more journal articles
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12. celebrate the anniversary of something I did right
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13. Invest
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14. Do something with my Arduino
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15. broadcast sound art on shortwave
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16. be a life model
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17. learn to circular breathe
19 people -
18. learn to glide
13 people -
19. start painting again
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20. build a steam powered turntable
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21. move to Canada
520 people -
22. learn to weld
1 entry . 1 cheer427 people -
23. rock climb
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24. use people's names when I greet them
34 people -
25. create small pieces of art, and leave them for people to find
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26. burn one of every national flag
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27. discover which symbols I respect, and desecrate them
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28. play an all night drone gig in a stairwell
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29. overcome my fears
1 entry274 people -
30. be more decisive
1 entry653 people -
31. Create a life plan
1 entry200 people -
32. dance more
1 entry1,070 people -
33. learn python
1 entry . 1 cheer753 people -
34. overcome anxiety
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35. complain more
1 entry1 person -
36. change my career
1 entry87 people -
37. eat smaller portions
1 entry33 people -
38. plan things that involve other people
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39. say something quotable
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40. plan to do enough things to make it worthwhile keeping a diary
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41. watch like nobody's dancing
1 cheer1 person
How I did it: After much fiddling with dosages, I found I couldn't really distinguish hyper from hypo by how I felt. In both directions I was sleepy, vague and anxious. By tweaking dosage according to the blood tests instead I found a "good enough" dosage and stuck with that. Read how I did it…
How I did it: Came up with a coding that might be better than the trad Inca coding. Made lots of knots. Found that there are limitations on distance between knots depending on knot type. Got bored with making knots. There are many other uses for a ball of string. Maybe I'll get inspired and try again some day. Read how I did it…
How I did it: Bread in the freezer at work, sandwich stuff in the fridge topped up every week, bring fruit every couple of days. Easy. Also means there's food about if I'm working late. Read how I did it…
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Psychology is pretty straightforward.
3 things fuck you up:
1 – taking on other people’s shit
2 – dumping your shit on other people
3 – shitting on yourself
If you’re at least making the effort to cut down on all of those, you’re healthy.
a 3 day session with shrinkie, and I feel as if I’ve got a slightly better picture of the things I need to work on..
