I'm doing 33 things
Had a couple of promising contacts come to nothing because of my own stupids. Thinking of going to a relationship counsellor as a single – because I don’t want to get to retirement age without ever having had a stable long term partner.
refreezer's Life List
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1. destroy all my web identities, including this one
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2. list 5 things I like about everyone I know
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3. work well and consistently
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4. treat people and things that are important to me well
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5. stop sabotaging relationships
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6. Spend less time fooling around on the net and more time actually working
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7. decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life
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8. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
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9. read more journal articles
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10. Invest
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11. Do something with my Arduino
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12. broadcast sound art on shortwave
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13. be a life model
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14. learn to circular breathe
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15. learn to glide
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16. start painting again
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17. build a steam powered turntable
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18. move to Canada
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19. learn to weld
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20. rock climb
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21. use people's names when I greet them
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22. create small pieces of art, and leave them for people to find
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23. burn one of every national flag
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24. discover which symbols I respect, and desecrate them
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25. play an all night drone gig in a stairwell
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26. overcome my fears
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27. be more decisive
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28. Create a life plan
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29. say something quotable
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30. complain more
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31. delete old emails and sms
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32. Find a partner.
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33. Buy a Will kit from post office & complete it
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How I did it
It made me
alive 
How I did it: Mindfulness meditation course, yoga, psychologist, sleep study, working through relationship stuff, journaling, regular phone calls to a helpful friend, "friendicine", being determined enough to put it all together & push through the hard stuff. Read how I did it…
It made me
sleep
How I did it: Asked my GP to refer me for a sleep study. Turns out there is a sleep lab on campus. I did a home sleep study a few days later, and a few days after that I had results - so now I have a CPAP machine, and the whole process took less than 2 weeks. Read how I did it…
It made me
more stable
How I did it: After much fiddling with dosages, I found I couldn't really distinguish hyper from hypo by how I felt. In both directions I was sleepy, vague and anxious. By tweaking dosage according to the blood tests instead I found a "good enough" dosage and stuck with that. Read how I did it…
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Recent entries
constructive use of “suicidal ideation” – if I’m going to be thinking about suicide all the time just because of some biochemical fuckuppery, I may as well “take steps” in a constructive way by making a proper will. Hopefully by the time that’s done I’ll have enough serotonin to just carry on living.
If I treat my brain well it will be good to me. Treating it well means things like getting enough exercise and sleep, making sure there is at least as much reward as punishment, having a social life outside work, having some social contact at work, and having someone to discuss work with.
I learned the hard way from my previous job – if you work late, don’t take holidays, have no social life outside work, have a frustrating job that nobody else understands, get no feedback or management, and the most significant conversation you have in a work day is “a salmon sandwich please” - then your brain will not treat you well – everything will be distracting and the work will go nowhere.
