I have relapsed again. I knew that there was a likelihood that it would happen, because once a person has struggled with anxiety, he is more likely to have those issues again. I hate this season of my life right now. I know that I am free, and I know that God is living in me. I hate this crutch of my anxiety. It feels worse than it did when I was going through this 2 years ago. This too shall pass.
queenmalka's Life List
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1. Love Jesus
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2. learn to trust God completely, knowing He is in control and all things work together for His glory
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3. Hold nothing back and dive completely into God's plan for my life and find myself in His great love for me
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4. Be all who God has called me to be
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5. Make peace with my dad
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6. Stand on the Word of God
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7. Restore my old friendships
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8. Fall in love
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9. Be on Take Home Chef
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10. Get a "New Creation" tattoo
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11. Take a Strip Aerobics class
1 entry . 1 cheer27 people -
12. Be my own person
1 entry . 2 cheers100 people -
13. Become a nurse
1 entry . 2 cheers762 people -
14. Save my world
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15. Write an autobiography
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16. Love the unlovable
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17. Go out for drinks with Adrien Brody
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18. Sing "Ugly Girl" by Fleming and John to my ex's
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19. Have a son so I can call him "my little man"
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20. Run into my junior high crushes
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21. Not take stuff so darn seriously
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22. Run into David Blaine
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23. Be in Cirque du Soleil
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24. Have perfect vision
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25. Live in a kibbutz
1 entry5 people -
26. Go salsa dancing
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27. Learn to play the bodhran
1 entry60 people -
28. Have multiple orgasms
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29. get enough sleep
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30. Win my Oireachtas
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31. Buy a Toyota Matrix
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32. Be a Bobbi Brown model
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33. Pray at the Western Wall
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34. Find a good therapist
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35. makeout in an elevator
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36. have a conversation with each member of my extended family
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37. Have a mechanical bull at my wedding
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38. Be significant in finding a cure for clotting disorders
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39. Truly be free from anxiety and worry
1 entry1 person
How I did it: It took forever to grow my hair out, but I love the natural curl that has come with long hair. Everyone gives me so many compliments, and I love it because it feels so feminine. I've had short hair since age 14, so the change is great. Read how I did it…
I’ve got another year to look forward to. Oireachtas are exactly 2 months from this coming weekend. I’ve kinda started practicing, but now I really need to get my game face on. I rolled my ankle on August 31, which kept me out for a week. I’m trying to bounce back from that and keep pressing on to reach my goal yet again this year. I think it’s possible. I’ve come so far in the last year, not just with the dancing itself but with my mindset. I’ve truly cultivated a love for dancing and been proud of the work that I’ve put in. I think this is going to be a good year.
By “do well”, I mean recall. I have done well at Nationals before (minus last year), but I really want to move up in my ranking. I would like to place higher and most of all, dance my best. I want to really improve and feel like I danced my best and gave it my all in practice and in the final performance !
