quefire

is learning to let it go



I'm doing 20 things
 

quefire's Life List

  1. 1. minimize my material possessions
    2 entries
    144 people
  2. 2. Send a post card to PostSecrets
    68 people
  3. 3. create my own website
    5,786 people
  4. 4. call my friends
    1 entry
    26 people
  5. 5. Spend more time with friends.
    1 entry
    627 people
  6. 6. get over him for real
    1 entry
    66 people
  7. 7. let it go
    1 entry
    101 people
  8. 8. take a road trip
    972 people
  9. 9. surf
    1,061 people
  10. 10. find out what my blood type is
    1,344 people
  11. 11. wake up earlier
    1,947 people
  12. 12. Learn to play the drums
    2,031 people
  13. 13. get out of debt
    12,156 people
  14. 14. Get rid of one possession every day
    31 people
  15. 15. Ride my bike to work twice a week for a year
    12 people
  16. 16. floss more often
    106 people
  17. 17. Finish all the books I started
    9 people
  18. 18. know who I am
    156 people
  19. 19. stop comparing myself to others
    421 people
  20. 20. wear red lipstick
    37 people
Recent entries
let it go
The land of dwell

So many people have said to me over and over “you have to let it go”.
So many things I dwell on and never seem to be able to let them go.
I want to change that. I don’t want to live in the land of dwell and focus so much on the past. I want to be hopeful about the future and all that is out there…



get over him for real
This could get long

I went on a vacation to Mexico in 2001 with some girl friends. We were staying in the same hotel and I had met his friends but had yet to meet him even though I saw him around.
On the second last night we finally met. I never expected to meet anyone on vacation let alone someone who lived in the same country as I did! We briefly talked about a long distance relationship. He left for home a day before I did and I was eager to get home to be in contact. We kept in contact with emails and the occasional phone call.
Over the years he had a couple of girlfriends but we remained friends. I was convinced that I was the girl for him and he was the guy for me even though he wasn’t willing to try a long distant relationship. I should have seen the signs early on but I think I was in denial. I tried to cut him out of my life numerous times but always seemed to end up communicating with him again. About two years ago he got married to someone he met on a vacation (how ironic). I continued to try to get him out of my life but at the same time I thought he married the wrong woman. I was open with my feelings and he knew the way I felt about things and often found it difficult to be friends with him. Although he was now married there were often times where we were flirty and inappropriate with one another. It’s been 7 years of this and I need to move forward in my life. I feel as though this so called friendship is holding me back and I continue to give myself false hope with this now married man! So I told him that I needed to move on and he respected my decision. I always come crawling back but this time I want it to be different! There has to be someone out there for me!!



Spend more time with friends.
Chalk this one up there with calling my friends

I love spending time with my friends but I also love doing my own thing. I think sometimes I forget how much fun it is and get so isolated doing my own thing.
Other times I think that maybe I am afraid to get too close to people for fear of them moving away or getting married and having kids and not having as much time to spend with each other.
So it is easier to just be and not have to deal with the hurt that may come with the risk of spending time.



See all entries ...


 

I want to:
43 Things Login