rachom

I’m 21 and feel so lost. Everyone around me knows what they want or has an idea. I have none. I just keep floating around, how am I supposed to know without being broke from school or having a chance to try out the occupation?

I’ve been dealing with trust issues all my life. It was due to my father getting killed when I was 5 years old, it left a bad mark on me. Not to mention several years later I lost two of my grandma’s and one of my grandpa’s. I have a horrible fear of the ones I love leaving me. Therefore, now that I have a boyfriend that I really care about, I am having a very hard time trusting him. He gives me no reasons not too, but I’m just afraid he will either get bored of me or something else will happen. I only really trust my mom and brother, and sometimes I feel that’s all I ever will trust. I don’t want that, but I don’t know what to do to make it better.
I just need some relief from this, I need to change.